Captured (A Finchel Story)

Chapter 24

(4 Weeks till graduation)
"Rachel whats going on? You haven't been coming out of your room since one week", Leroy says while he stands infront of my bed.
I hide my face with a pillow and ignore him. Of course i didnt come out of my room. Standing up would mean being reminded of Finn and i dont want to be reminded of him.
My dad sighs and i hear how he walks through my room and opens one window.
"Why aren't you talking to me?", he asks and i just keep hiding in my bed.
Because you wouldn't understand, is what i'm thinking. He would never understand why his little girl fell in love with a boy who obviously killed someone, and is jealous of the girl who he killed.
It does sound kind of weird.
I wish Finn wouldnt be able to hurt me so much, but he has this ability and i hate it. I also hate the fact that he doesnt on purpose, he just does it and it drives me crazy.
And its not just Finn, but also Mike. Ever since that night i ignored him, him and his 'friends'.
Well at least i think that he has friends. Even though i don't want to, i start having the feeling that i miss him, that i miss the normal conversations we had. But even when we could start date again, it wouldnt be the same. Im in love with his brother in the end. And as i got to know last week, they went through this situation before and im not sure if i want to end up the way Lacey did.
Okay to be honest, Lacey seems quite much more exciting, if every boy wanted her, wow respect.
I wonder what it would be like if she would still be alive. Would Finn still hold onto her? would he try to get her attention instead of mine? The way he talked about her just made it clear to me that he loves her, he loves her way more than me. And now im starting to sound like im really jealous of a dead girl. Even if he would still love her, he has to get over her, he just has to. And maybe, just maybe, he would stop loving her for me.
Its a stupid wish but its something that could turn out to be real, at least i hope so.
Finn did try to show me that he has feelings for me, he made his way to my house, when the hell did he even find out where i live, and placed all those notes on my bed. Im still confused that my dad let him inside.
Should i ask Leroy why he did that? Why he let him inside? It would be the easiest thing to find out.
I stand up. Theres nothing to lose. Im graduating soon, im going to New York. I will leave Finn behind, and Mike and im definitely not going to end up like Lacey.
It would be nice though to finish that huge puzzle, called Finn Hudson.

Leroy sits in the kitchen, reading the newspaper. He wears his glasses, like he always does when he reads someting even though he doesnt need them. But he claims that it would make him look much more funkier. It doesnt though.
He looks up as he hears my footsteps and smiles. "Oh you came out of your cave. You're hungry?"
I shake my head. "No actually not"
He does seems kind of disappointed but of course he tries to hide it, just for me. he and hiram of course noticed my changing in my personality. They noticed that im much more absent in my mind and that i stopped meeting Kitty. They never talked to me about it. In that point they're not like the typical parents, they give things time and look if things heal by themselves. If they don't then they will talk but it takes months for them to realize it.
Leroy did seem to realize that its time to talk. He puts the newspaper away and takes off his glasses.
He points to the chair next to him and smiles sad. "I think we need to have a little talk."
Without resistance, i sit down.
Theres no silence between us, Leroy automatically starts talking.
"Rach, we know that our break up must have been hard for you. But we didnt think that it would hit you so hard."
"Its not your break up", i whisper while i face Leroy. He puts on a confused face but lets me talk.
"Theres something you dont know, Dad." Thats it. Im going to tell him.
I've been waiting for this day for so long. He's going to know the truth and he's going to tell me that its all going to be okay, and that whatever i am going to do, i'll be fine.
He would make me realize that i shouldnt fall for any of the Hudson-Brothers and that theres someone better out there for me.
As if i didnt know all those things by myself.
Leroy reaches out for my hand, takes it and starts stroking my fingers.
"Are you going to tell me?", he asks soft. Of course he knows that whatever it is, i wouldnt tell him. No matter how much i would want to, no matter how heartbroken i am.
I just can't tell him.
"No", i shake my head and stand up.
"Has it something to do with the boy who came here several weeks? This Finn boy?"
Leroy says his name out loud into the room. He says his name without knowing who he is.
He doesnt know what Finn did, where Finn lives, how Finn loves.
With tears in my eyes i turn around.
"You", i start yelling at Leroy "had no right in letting him into my room!"
Leroy stands now up as well. "Rachel stop talking in that tone to me."
"No! I want you to tell me why you let him inside. Why?!"
Leroy swallows, as he searches desperate for an answer. He's not going to find one, Finn did the same thing with my dad, with how he got to me. He just acted like the charming boy, the one who cares, the one who loves me to death. To death. The irony.
"He said he's a friend. Why shouldnt i let him in?" How can he stay so calm.
While Leroy tries to calm everyone down i just explode.
"Well i can tell you many reasons why you shouldnt!"
"Rachel stop" Its not my dad who is talking. But its also not Finn. Its Mike.