I Need You Now (Lauren / You)

Chapter 27

Your POV.

I didn't go home that night. I don't know where I went or what happened - it was like a blur. I was there, but then again, I wasn't.

My head rests against the window of the bus. I look at all the other people, who are either old or teenagers or in their 40's.

One person has a lot of luggage with her. There's a look on her fact, it's mixed of guilt and relief. Like she's leaving someone, but she feels guilty about it.

Leaving. I wonder how that would feel. Just to leave and get away. From everything, from the drama and life. From Lauren not loving me.

I have the money, so why can't I leave? Like, right now?

Lauren's POV.

I pace around the apartment, tears running down my face. Y/N hasn't came home yet, and I'm worried.

"Stop pacing, you're making me dizzy." Dinah comments.

"Shut up, Dinah!" I snap. "My girlfriend is fucking missing."

"Sorry." Dinah mutters, holding her hands up in surrender.

"What if she left? What if she never comes back? What if she's already gone? What if-"

"Stop with the what if," Ally cuts me off. "I'm sure she's fine. She's probably on her way back right now."

I hope so.

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Your POV.

I get off of the bus, putting my hands in my pocket. I walk inside my building, then going to the elevator.

I press my floor, the elevator slowly going up. I sigh once I get to my floor, walking towards my apartment door.

As I'm getting ready to walk in and prepare for Lauren, I see boxes across the hall and the door open. I furrow my eyebrows once I see who is moving in.

Luis.

My breath hitches, that's a problem for later. I open my door, slowly closing it. I look up to see everyone asleep.

"Y/N!" Everyone except for Lauren. "Where were you?"

"I was out," I bluntly say. "Thinking about what I did wrong and why you can't love me."

"I can love you!" Lauren exclaims. "I just need time!"

"But when we first met, it took you what? A week to fall in love with me again? It's been months now, Lauren." I softly say.

"I know," Lauren is now inches from me. "And I'm sorry. I wish it was that simple, to love you. I crave you, I want you - I need you.."

"But you just don't love me?" I mummer. I swallow a lump in my throat, seeing as what I'm about to say hurts me and her both. "Lauren, maybe we should..we should t-take a break." My voice is bellow a whisper.

Lauren's eyes widen, but she stays quiet. All she's doing is starring at me. I guess she's thinking? I don't know.

Taking a break would be the best answer. It'd save both of us the pain - especially me.

"I.." Lauren swallows, slowly nodding. "Yeah, okay." By now, tears are falling from our eyes.

"You can uh, you can stay here..I'll get an apartment." I say.

Lauren nods, but we don't say anything or move. Just the two of us starring at each other, like we're waiting for one of us to do something.

Lauren hugs me, her arms wrapping around me. Her head is buried in my chest, breathing me in. I rest my head on her shoulder, our tears on each other's shirt.

I breath in the scent of Lauren. Vanilla filling my nostrils. Lauren always loved to use Vanilla shampoo and conditioner, I don't blame her, it smells really good.

I pull away from Lauren. Out of the side of my eye, I see the others awake and watching us, quietly.

"I'll grab my things and..yeah." I quietly say, Lauren nodding and walking over to the couch. She sits on it, putting her head in her hands.

Naturally, my first instinct would be to go over and comfort her. But I can't. And I won't.

At least, not for awhile.

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I don't want 2 go to school ):::::

Or my concert dksksksk

Have a good day guys!

-Gracie.