Abused And Used

Chapter 18

(I know that I have not updated this in awhile and I am truly sorry, I hope you enjoy!! and I know it MIGHT be a lot, but hey, I have not updated for a long time it seems so I just decided to give an early Summer present for everyone!)

My feet would not move to go to Matt, my mind knew it needed to talk to him and set things straight, but what he did was much uncalled for and not needed. I know I broke my promise to him, he should understand that I did not mean to break it and that I had to be there for Josh. Josh was not going to hurt me and I even knew that. But I should have at least texted Matt to tell him I was okay.

So I guess we are both at fault.

My feet began moving and I ended up in the living room where Matt was sitting on the couch staring into oblivion.

I sat down beside him and cleared my throat, “We need to talk…”

“Oh great…the whole ‘we need to talk’ line means you are going to break up with me and be on your merry little way. J-Just…get it done and over with…” He would not meet my gaze.

“W-What…? You think I am going to break up with you? No. That is not what I was going to do…I just wanted to talk to you about what happened today…and to tell you that was completely uncalled for and you should not have yelled at me or Josh. Especially Josh. He is going through a lot this week and you yelling at him did not help anything one bit. Then, you go off and yell at me? Really…? I did not mean to break my promise to you, Matt. Josh and I were busy looking at photos his Mom had…I got caught up…”

“So you are saying you do not have time for me anymore? I understand completely now. You were having the time of your life with him and you missed him and your love for him is starting to blossom all over again. You want him back deep down inside but you are just too scared to tell me. I get it. Look, I cannot help when I worry about you, especially after all he did to you, and yet you still seem to have an ounce of caring in your body for him. I do not understand it. He abused you, did everything a villain would do to a superhero and you still go off to him! I feel like I am just standing in the sidelines just waiting for you to come back to me, I am afraid one day you will not come back to me in my arms and I would be left hanging to deal with you not being here. I do not want that day to come, ever. I want you to stay with me…”

“Matt, you were the one who said I could go to Josh and be there to comfort him! If it was the other way around, I am pretty sure that Josh would let me go to you…I do still care about him, I will always have a special place in my heart for him. He will always be in my life even if you do not like it or not. I would always go back to you, I want you in my life and to be MINE forever…I want to stay with you and walk to the ends of the earth with you and to be able to be your wife one day.”

He held me in his arms and I cuddled up to him, “I am sorry…I just worry about you a lot, it’s because I love you and I do not want anything to happen to you”

“I know, Baby. I worry about you also. I am always scared you would get yourself into stupid situations and something would happen to you…”

“I am invincible! Nothing will happen to me!” he laughed.

I hit him playfully, “Then I am your superwoman”

“Yes you are” he kissed my head sweetly.

I fell asleep in his arms hours later after talking with him, which I am glad I did. We really needed to have that talk and if we never did, then we would be at odds with each other.

A noise woke up my sleep and it was my phone going off. Buzz. Buzz.

I had a text message from Josh: