Abused And Used

Chapter 17

(BEWARE: I CRIED WHEN I WROTE THIS! And you probably will cry too, but idk! who knows lol In my opinion, this is a sad chapter, you will find out when you read it! And sorry it took so long to upload a new chapter, ive been so busy lately)

He puts his hands on my waist and pulls me closer to his muscular body. The feeling of being this close to him and his warmth take over my soul and consume every inch of my body. I sigh and say, “Why can’t you be mine for forever right now?”

“My love, you are mine for forever…” he kisses me on the forehead softly and sweetly.

“I know THAT, but I mean…you know…as in marriage…” I lock eyes with him and I can see the shock in his face.

He moves a strand of hair away from my face and says, “Not now…I want you to be mine forever for as long as I live, but right now there is too much that has been going on…and I feel like if we marry that something will happen to mess everything up…and I don’t want that to happen…and I also feel like that if you and Josh were to remain friends that you will develop more feelings for him than you have for me…and I do not want to share you with anyone else…you are MY love and only love. Not anyone else’s. Mine.”

“You should know by now that Josh and I will never get back together, he does not treat me like you do. You treat me with love and passion and he treats me with anger. I do not want that for a relationship. I thought if I stayed with him for awhile longer that he would somehow change for the better and for me, but I guess you cannot make someone change, they have to be willing to change themselves.”

“I would never change anything about you no matter what. I love the way you are and love the way you are with me. I love seeing the look on your face when you look at me; I see so much love and passion your eyes behold for me. I love you. Forever and always” he kissed me on the forehead softly and I realized that I have found my soul mate; my partner.

My phone buzzed to tell me I got a text message. It was from Josh. Speaking of the devil.

 Hey, Heather. I know I am the last person you expect to be texting you, but I really need you right now…my mom’s anniversary for her passing is tomorrow and you are the only one that truly understands and the only one that has been there for me through this and I want you here with me, you can spend the night tonight and leave tomorrow sometime, or whenever you want. I promise I will not do anything to harm you…I just need someone right now…and that someone is YOU.

I finished reading the text message and slowly looked at Matt.

“What is it? Something wrong?” he asked me.

“Oh, uh…” I did not want to tell him it was from Josh, but I did not want to lie to him about it.

“Babe, you can tell me…”

I sighed heavily, “It was Josh, he needs me to spend the night tonight and tomorrow…his mom’s anniversary of her passing is tomorrow and he really needs someone and I know he will not hurt me, Matt. I could just tell by his text. He just wants someone there to comfort him…and I am the only one who can keep him in line from not doing OTHER things that he should not be doing. I will text you every hour if you want just so you know I am safe…”

“Heather, how do you know for sure he will not hurt you?”

“It’s his mom’s passing…he would be to emotional to do anything”

“Just because he is an emotional wreck does not mean he will not hurt you”

“Well, if he hurts me then that is my own fault for going over there, but I want to be there for him…his mom and I were close too. I would feel bad if I do not go over there and at least show my condolences”