Abused And Used

Chapter 15

Hopefully I am not really going crazy and it is actually happening and I can at least have my sanity left. I would not know what I would do if Matt does not believe me in anyway shape or form. I just hope he at least does not tell me that I need “rest” and that my brain needs to clear out again. I am just tired of people telling me that I need to rest and clear my head. What if I don’t want to? So what then?

I get up out of bed and shuffle through the hallway and sleepily go and check the mail. I see that there is another yellow envelope and I take it out of the mailbox and it has my name written in black sharpie across it. I knew it was from the person that was causing me this much stress again.

I sighed and opened it and feared of its contents. It is a picture of Matt and I together in bed holding each other close. My hands begin trembling and I looked on the back of the photo and it read: “Till Death Do You Part”

I dropped the photo and began shaking really badly. I was terribly scared for mine and Matt’s life once again for the millionth time. This was a threat.

My life is too stressful right now and I cannot take it anymore. I break down crying too release my emotions out. I need to do this, because if I do not, I will go much crazier than I probably am right now. I need to show Matt this photo, but I am scared that if I do, he will not see it and it is only me that sees it.

If I DO show him the photos and he does see it then I am not crazy after all. It is 50/50 here. I need to make up my mind.

Right now, it can wait. Matt is busy and I am busy releasing my emotions.

I pick up the photo and return inside the apartment and lock the door behind me to reassure that I am safe and sound.

I would not risk leaving the door unlocked if there was a cuckoo serial killer out there to ruin my life for all eternity. Since, how everyone seems to like that idea.

Matt is standing in front of me and I quickly hid the photo out of sight.

“What are you doing?” he asks.

“Checking the mail…like I always do” I looked down at the ground and felt the sudden urge to show him what I was hiding from him, but I just could not come to my senses and show him.

I trust him, but I do not trust myself.

Will he think I am crazy if he does not see the photo and I only do?

“Oh, Okay…” he can tell I am not telling him something but he does not ask. He kisses me on the forehead and leaves.

I sigh and all of the sudden my phone buzzes. I answer it, “Hello?”

“Till Death Do You Part. I am coming for you! Sleep with one eye open always!” then the line goes dead.

My phone slips through my fingers and thuds to the ground. My face goes completely white and I am shaken.

“NO!!!” I scream.

Matt is suddenly by my side and everything is going into slow motion.

“Heather?! HEATHER?!” I hear him but nothing is coming out of my mouth, he continues to call my name and I am suddenly having a panic attack. I feel myself getting claustrophobic and I could feel the wall closing in on me.

Matt notices, “Babe, breathe in and out and try and count backwards from 10”

I do as I am told and start to be myself again.

“You okay?” Matt asks concerning.

“Y-Yeah…I am okay, I hope at least”

He holds me close and whispers, “Is there anything you need to tell me?”