Matt got into the car and started the engine and we were off. I cannot put my finger on who would be watching me; Matt never told me where Josh or his brother was after what had happened.
He slowly grabbed my hand and put it on his thigh and held my hand there, “You mean everything to me, and I want you to know that I love you more than you will ever know, and you saved my life, even though I am the one who is supposed to save you, I am so grateful for you”
Tears started flowing down my cheeks like a river, he is just so sweet to me and I love that about him.
“Oh Matt…”
“You do not have to say anything, because I already know how you feel about me, you did that just by risking your life for mine and how do I ever repay you?” he asked me.
“Make Love to me” I murmured.
“What??” he sounded shocked by the statement I gave him, truth is I did want him to make love to me no matter what; I just had to get that out of there.
“I said make love to me” I said quietly.
“But Heather, you just got out of the hospital, not now.”
“I miss you…”
“I miss you too, but just not now. I do not want to hurt you”
That was the end of the conversation. I just got hurt and fed up with everything, we got to his apartment and he took everything inside and came back for me and picked me up bridal style carefully. I wrapped my arms around his neck and laid my head on his chest and sobbed.
We got into the apartment and he laid me down onto the couch softly and said, “Oh Heather, please don’t cry, please don’t” he whipped my tears away softly with his thumb.
“Just leave. I do not want you around me right now!” he was taken aback from my sudden outburst; I think I put him through a loop.
“But Heather, please! Just listen to me, I just do not want to hurt you, if I did, then I would not be able to forgive myself…” he looked down at the floor and I saw tears starting to form in his eyes.
“Don’t speak. I know what you’re saying. So please stop explaining!” I yelled at him.
“I just wanted to explain to you how much I do not want to hurt you! What if I did? Then I will lose you and I cannot risk that!!”
“You know what?! I don’t care if you hurt me! I just want you to make love to me! I MISS YOU! Darn it!” I could not control my sobs, because I could feel that slowly I was going to lose him.
“You just got out of the freakin hospital, Heather! You have to take extra pre-cautions! That is the doctor’s orders and these are going to be MY orders too!” he started shouting.
“Screw the doctor’s orders! I am fine! You know what?! Screw you too! Go find some other girl to go screw with!”
I saw the shock on his face after I said that to him, I was just not in the mood to fight with him, I realized that we hardly ever fight, until now. I hate fighting with people, because Josh and I would always fight constantly and I got fed up with it so I started sticking up for myself.
“Why can’t you just understand MY way of thinking?!”
“Because Matt! It is stupid!” I continued shouting at him.
“Oh SCREW this!” he yelled.
He grabbed his black jacket from the chair in the kitchen and stormed out.
What have I done? I thought. I started sobbing uncontrollably and could not stop the flow coming from my eyes. A couple hours later, I got my Blackberry from my pocket and texted him:
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Abused And Used
Ficțiune adolescenți18 year old Heather thought she had it all, a perfect boyfriend, the perfect grades, and a best friend Matt, who she loved since Middle School, But everything changed when Heather's boyfriend Josh's mother died from cancer, he started abusing her ev...
