I know it's hard, but who are you to fall apart on me? (Sequel to IDWLMBF) HOLD

Goodbye just for a little bit

Vic pov

We were about a week away  from  our tour and the guys and I were excited as ever.  Only  thing was, I couldn’t show it. After  spilling to the girls  that we were  leaving right around the  time of the  wedding  Mike and  I had to act as if we didn’t want this to happen. For the sake of keeping them happy.  Cass  hadn’t taken to this tour so great, she was upset with Mike for a while making him sleep on the couch but she soon got over  it, after several bouquet of  flowers and forcing mike to go pick out  the cake and food with her. Tam took to the news better then  I had excepted, she obviously wasn’t happy and was starting to do small things to get on my nerves but that’s how she was. Growing up, if she was mad at you , shed find out what  would annoy you and do it instead of talking about it. Childish  but it was okay , nothing  could  darken my spirit.

“Oh god.!  BABE!!” I yelled from the shower.

“Yes?” she called back sweetly. 

“why is the tub  not draining properly?” I wa starting to panic when the water wasnt going down the drain during my shower.

“Maybe its plugged!” she called back.

I shrugged and  bent over  putting my  fingers down the drain to see if something was  blocking it, like a  pierce of soap.

What my fingers came across was far worst. Lifting it up my fingers  were tangled in a slimy  knot of long hair. I cringed and left shivers go down my spine.

“Tammy..”  not even forming a sentence cause I was so grossed out. I stood there with a towel around my waste holding her  clump of hair.

“Eww  Vic! throw if out, your getting water on the carpet” she squealed.

“Wha??  Dude are you seeing this?! Its like a baby animal! Why arent you bald?!”

She  scowled at me and walked over with a tissue in her hand and took the  lump of hair to throw out.

“Well stop bitching about it and throw it out. Its not all my  hair, you hair is just as long!”

This is what  I meant, she was  fighting with me on the  smallest of things and leaving things around just to tick me off. Just the other day she  left the  cap off the  tube of tooth paste but fought me on it saying I left water all around the sink. Or  she would  purposely leave her straightened on and bitch when she would find it.  Being the better half of this relationship I took the blame just to end the  fight. Sometimes I would regret letting her move in with me but  I knew she was just mad that I was leaving.

“Babe, I was only joking. Just calm down”

“no!” she yelled from the bathroom. “I have to go to work. Ill see you around  5” she said coming out and grabbing her  yoga mat from side of the room. I watched her leave and listened until the door slammed shut.  I sighed sitting on the bed running my hand through my hair.

I couldn’t  wait to go on tour when she acted like this.

Tam pov

"How could  he do this? How  could he leave me in the most  stressful time!”  Cas  punched the punching  bag. 

We decided to throw some punches to get out our frustration out, actually we had been doing this for the past week.

“I know! Their so inconsiderate! Like this morning  he gave me shit for clogging up the  shower drain”

“what a man. It was probably his hair” She rolled her eyes.

“It was!, His hair is just as  long. I should just cut it in his sleep”

Cas laughed. We switched so now she was holding the bag while I swung at it.

“Mike was suppose to pick out table clothes with me  but he decided that band practice was more important today.”

“Wow, what a jerk. Vic never even told me they had one”

“I cant wait till they leave, honestly I think we can do this on our own”

“We can. Who needs men. I cant wait  till your  bachelorette party”

It was the morning of the  tour  and  I kept my eyes closed as I heard Vic frantically running around the bedroom gathering last minute things and have a shower.  I knew i should get up but i was too upset to say goodbye. I hated when he left, I hated being alone. I plainly just felt depressed.

"Are you going to get up and see me off?" I knew he was standing at the end of the bed. He knew i was awake. Just like i could tell by his shallow breathing at night that he was asleep.  I sighed  rolling over giving him a  pout.

"Do you have to leave? Today?" he gave me a sympathetic look

"Im sorry baby. the bus is coming soon"

I groaned covering my face with the  blanket. trying to hide the fact that  i was about to ball my eyes out.

the bed dipped as  he crawled on and laid next to me, his hand softly come to the top of the blanket pulling it down. I turned my head so he couldn't see the tears.

"Tammy baby, don't cry. We'll still be able to talk. Its only two months"

"Thats like 2 years for me" I whined.

his placed his hand on my cheek bringing my face back to face him. Vic leaned down and planed a long soft kiss on my lips. I was going to miss this.

"Ill miss you and think about you everyday"

"you better" I couldnt hold it in, tears were coming fasted then i had liked.

"I miss you already"

"Me too. but you have Cass and all the girls. You'll be so busy time will fly by"

"But Vic"  I stopped. He kissed my lips again this time longer. He was killing me. 

deepening the kiss  i wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him on top of me while his hand slid down to my thigh giving it a tight squeeze. 

"Quicky?" I whispered breaking away just enougho ask. I felt him smile. just then there was a honk from outside.

"Aww babe" I whined.

pushing himself up he pulled my hand and helped me stand pulling me into a hug.

"I love you"  He said,  It wasnt often I heard him say those words. We both never really said it,  guess we werent  like most couples who threw the word around like it was everyday language. It was meaningful and we both just knew the other person did.

I let out a sob and tightened the hug. "I love you too Vic." 

he stroked my hair and loosened my arms from around his waist  walking over to his luggage, i followed him down stairs.

standing there  watch him put on his shoes on, he stood up pulling me into one last hug, kissing me on the top of my head.

"I love you and ill msg you in a bit. Be a good girl"

"Always am. I love you Vic, dont do anything stupid" I smiled up to him. 

he leaned down and kissed me one last time before the guys honked again and with that he was gone.

standing in the door way as the bus pulled away the  house suddenly felt so cold. it was too quiet, too empty. I was just a house now, not a home. Vic was home, and he was gone.

taking my phone out i dialed Cass to see how she was. My guess, not good

"Hes gone" She cried from the other end.

"I know" Still not finding the strength in me to actually speak.

"Tam, I miss him. How did you do it before"

"Well i wasnt dating before, and  i just kind of went out"

i could hear Cass snuffling. "Tam"

"Yeah?"

"Lets go out tonight"