Forever More - {The Rev/Synyster Gates - Book 1} -

Chapter 28

Katie’s POV

I groaned as I checked my phone for the time. It was 2:28 in the morning and I still couldn’t sleep. We came back home really late after another long recording session. It’s been a week now since the first day when Ruby showed off her skills on the drums and I had come up with this simple melody on the piano. Matt and I had been working on lyrics for this song today while Brian and Zacky worked on solos and riffs themselves. Jimmy and Ruby would either make out or come up with some crazy ass drum lines and Johnny had been recording his bass lines for the first song.

I loved writing with Matt. He was so talented in finding the right words while I was trying hard to describe him what I actually wanted to say. We were complementing each other really good so far but the lyrics weren’t really working with the melody. So either we changed the words or the melody. Matt was insisting on keeping the melody while I was playing around on the piano to find something better. Late that night our disagreement had broken out into a mini fight but Larry had stopped it before we killed each other. Everyone had called it a night then and we all drove home.

That was now three hours ago and although my body felt exhausted my mind was still spinning around all sorts of things. I turned around to look out of the window into the night sky when I noticed the empty bed of Ruby. She would now spend every night in my brother’s room. It was absolutely fine with me so I couldn’t understand why she was trying to get some sleep here, in our guest room in the first place.

The guest room. In the second, just next door, was Brian, probably sleeping soundly. I wasn’t sure why he was still living with us though. I mean I loved having him around although it was almost unbearable being so close to him and not being able to show any sign of affection. I loved watching him interact with my brother or cooking or just sitting on the couch playing with Jimmy’s acoustic guitar. He looked so happy when he had a guitar in his hand, like he would drift off into another world where he could create something beautiful and dismiss it again if he wanted to. My heart pounded like crazy against my ribcage every time we were in the same room. Just sitting next to him in the studio or at home caused goosebumps all over my body.

It was a wonderful feeling, having a huge crush on him and knowing that he felt the same, but at the same time have I never felt so heartbroken in my life before. As sweet as our few stolen moments were that we shared the more it hurt to keep it a secret. I wanted to talk to Jimmy but every time I saw him so happy with my best friend I couldn’t bring it up. I just couldn’t destroy his happiness, not now, not ever.

Ruby and I had only four days left before we had to fly back home. Just thinking about it made my stomach grow into knots. Not just because Ruby would be back with her cruel family but also would I have to leave my brother and my blood family. And Brian. What would happen with us when I was back in Alaska and hundreds of miles were between us? And what about my brother and Ruby? Only thinking about all the heartbreak that is going to happen in four days made me sick.

Sighing I turned around and checked the time again. 2:31. I groaned loudly and pressed my pillow on my face in frustration. I tried to count sheep but it didn’t work. My mind was too busy and cruel to let my body get some rest. Then I remembered what Mary used to do when I wouldn’t sleep in the night. She made me a hot chocolate with a lot of cream and sprinkles. That was actually an excellent idea.

I peeled myself out of my sheets and made my way downstairs only to hear light giggles coming from the room of my brother.

‘Seriously?’ I rolled my eyes in annoyance. Yes, they were cute. Yes, I loved them being together. But being in my situation this was driving me nuts. It was so unfair!

Mumbling under my breath I climbed down the stairs. I rubbed my eyes as I turned around the corner to walk into the kitchen when I heard a low chuckle. Freezing in my tracks I peeked through my fingers and saw Brian leaning against the counter with a steaming mug in his hands.