My Book of Everything

Awkward

Today I got asked out. By someone I don't like like that. It was weird, because I was asked though a friend of his, over email. I felt really bad, because even though I had known he liked me, it was the first time I had been asked out by him, or anyone, really. I told the person that asked for him that I liked someone else, which is true, but still really awkward. The friend asked who it was, and then guessed one of my past crushes. I told him that that I used to like that person, but I don't anymore.
Then, to make things worse, he then emailed me, asking if what I said was true. I said yes, and he asked me who it was. I told him not to tell, and proceeded to tell him my actual crush. I felt really bad, and told him that, but he said it was okay. I ended up emailing him for a awhile longer, and then again later on. It was sorta out of pity, but not really. No one really likes him, but he's not that bad. I might even consider him a somewhat friend.
So, in the end, I got asked out for the first time, and rejected him. And that, I think, is the worst part. Not the person, but that I had to reject them. I always wanted the first person to ask me out be someone I actually liked. Not someone who I didn't return the feelings to. It sucks.
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October 31, 2015