My Book of Everything

I...I Don't Know What to Say

So I'm on the bus on my way to school and this person sits by me. When I look to see who it was I felt my heart leap. Then fall. It was this kid who at first glance looks sort of like my crush. I'd seen him before, when he sat in a different seat. I felt the same that time too.
I really need to get a grip. I have to get control of my emotions. If a stranger can make me get butterflies just by reminding me of him, then what could happen if he actually sits by me.
Disaster. Especially because I don't plan on trying to make him like me. I have a friend who also has a crush on him and I'm not going to get in her way. I'm not like that.
But that doesn't mean if they get together I won't be jealous. I'll just sacrifice my feeling for hers. She knows I feel this way. Not the sacrifice part, but the crush part.
So yeah I guess I'm done now.
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