My Book of Everything

Clarification

So, I've recently been reading through some of my past uploads, specifically the ones that talk about my current boyfriend. And I think some things need cleared up.
First, lets outline which posts were actually about him. The one called "Awkward" came first. In this post, I told about how I was asked out over email by one of his friends, but rejected him. Then I talked to him over email for a while and concluded that he wasn't that bad of a guy. There was also some more feel-y stuff and details, but you can go read that post if you need more info. My next post that was about him, "Weird, New, and Happy," told about how since that first fateful day, we had been emailing back and forth. I said there that I considered him a friend and nothing more, which was true at the time. I really liked having a guy as just a friend. The post "Fairytale Ending" was also about him, but he was the nice guy, not the current crush. This was a really emotional post, so to get the full story, you probably need to go read that. Long story short, I didn't want to settle for someone I only might learn to like. Later on, I posted "What do I say? What do I feel?." It was after my current boyfriend asked me to a dance, and I said yes. I had just realized I had a small crush on him. Remember, we weren't dating at this point. The next time he was brought up was "Happy! (For now)," in which I said I had been emailing him and I was all giddy. I didn't mention him again till I announced we were dating. That's all the posts that were about him, or at least all current ones. (Unless you count "How does this even Happen?!?" or ":)") He might have been mentioned as a side character at some point in an earlier post or something.

Now, lets move onto controversy. No one so far as commented about this or mentioned anything to me, but now that you know for sure what posts were talking about him, you might notice that some things seem to contradict each other. And I suspect some people already knew that those posts were about the same person. Or not. But let's get going. Things really start to get controversial around "Weird, New and Happy" and "Fairytale Ending." Those posts were about me liking having a guy as just a friend and not wanting to settle. The fact that I'm now dating the object of those posts seems to make them irrelevant. However, just because I ended up dating my "guy friend" doesn't mean you can't have a guy that's just a friend. You can, and I have other guy friends that I'm not dating. (Obviously) And I wasn't lying during that post when I said I saw him as just a friend, because I did back then. As for "Fairytale Ending," I did not settle for my boyfriend. I might not have liked him romantically when I posted that, but I do now. And for the record, I kept rejecting him until I truly liked him back. So I didn't settle, but waited until I knew what I actually wanted.

I think that covers all the confusion that could be around all those posts, but if a follow up post is necessary, than a follow up post there shall be. Until then...
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-April 9, 2016