love again 2 [z.m au]

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Evelyn

Noah borrowed my car and left for his date with Lottie, leaving me all alone. Trisha will be bringing Ash and Ella shortly and Zayn won't be back until later tonight.

I have a certain urge to tell him about Harry coming over earlier today. A little bit of me actually missed Harry but he also made me feel uneasy. I can never look at him the same ever since that night.

Is it silly for me to hold that against him for so long? I know I've told myself to just let everything go and leave it but it still gets under my skin sometimes.

When Trisha came through the front door, Ella was the first to approach me with open arms. I've missed her so, so much, even though it's only been a day. After hugging her for what seemed like forever, she rushed to her playroom and occupied herself.

Trisha gave me a quick hug and passed Ash over to me and I couldn't help but tear when I saw him. I hated myself for the way I felt when Harry stopped by, almost as if I wanted him. How could I have felt that when I've moved on? Seeing Ashton made me realize what I already have.

"Aw, Evelyn," Trisha held me by my shoulders, looking at me worriedly. "What's wrong?" she wiped the tears away and I tried to contain emotions.

I couldn't believe that I actually felt something when Harry showed up at my doorstep and it's probably because I haven't seen him in so long.

"I'm sorry, I'm an emotional wreck," I admitted, feeling completely drained.

"Did something happen?" she asked and I immediately told her everything that was bothering me.

I just love how I can tell her anything and she understands me. When I finished my rant, she looked at me with a warm smile. Her kind words and advice made me feel a whole lot better.

It was sad to see her leave but I'm glad that I was able to let her know about how I was feeling. But I just needed Zayn back home and I needed to tell him everything before I break.

The kids bedtime was near and I gave them both a bath and got them changed into their pj's. Ella has learned to fall asleep on her own but I still sit by her bedside until she's knocked.

Ash always and only falls asleep when he's in my arms or Zayn's along with a warm bottle of milk. It takes him a while until he's in a deep slumber but I love having him close to me as I watch his eyes flutter close. I gently laid him down in his crib before tip toeing out of his nursery, careful not to wake him.

I made it to our bedroom and glanced at the time set on the alarm clock and felt anxious. Zayn would be back in a few and I couldn't wait.

I paced back and forth all this time until I heard him come up the staircase. The door opened and he walked in while taking off his blazer before his eyes were laid on me before he closed the space between us with a tight hug.

"Hey," he greeted and you have no idea how much I missed hearing his voice.

"Hi." Was all I could say at the moment. But damn, did it feel good to have have him in my hold. I pulled away to let him change out into his usual attire which were sweatpants and a plain white tee.

"Has Harry talked to you lately?" I asked out of the blue, sitting down on the bed.

After he slid on his t-shirt, he shook his head. "We haven't spoken in a while, why?"

What the fuck. Did Harry lie to me...

I let out a shaky breath and relaxed my shoulders. "He stopped by."

"What?"

Oh, fuck. He doesn't know. Fucking Harry lied to me.

"He told me he talked to you before coming here to see me," I told him. I watched as his clenched his jaw slightly and I averted my gaze to my fidgeting hands. "He moved back."

Zayn stood in front of me. "He hasn't said a fucking word to me since we left Seattle."

"He lied to me then," I mumbled and closed my eyes, feeling a migraine forming.

"What did he say to you?"

"That he missed me..." I trailed off.

"Motherfucker," he cursed under his breath. "How the hell does he even know our address?"

"He asked for it so he could send Ella a birthday gift," I reminded him, making him relax a bit. But I could tell that he was still livid.

"For some reason I missed him too," I confessed. The look on his face broke me, but I had to tell him everything. "He asked if I ever thought about us still being together if he hadn't walked out on me years ago and it made me wonder. What if? But I immediately remembered everything that he said to me the night I told him I was pregnant I couldn't stand to look at him any longer."

Zayn stayed quiet.

"I hate that I felt the need for him when he showed up at our doorstep and it made me feel uneasy..." I paused to look up at him but his eyes were set on the floor before they met mine.

"Do you still have feelings for him?" his voice cracked as he asked me.

What? No. I don't. I can't. Harry lied to me, again, after regaining my trust.

"No," I answered. Zayn look unconvinced. "He's a liar! I thought we could put everything in the past behind us but it seems like he wants-" I got up from the bed and paced back and forth, for some reason I couldn't keep still.

"He wants you back," Zayn finished and I slowly nodded my head. "He had his chance and he blew it so he can fuck off."

Zayn grabbed me by the hand, making me come to a halt as he pulled me closer to him. "You're mine whether he likes it or not."

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Lol Harry needs to stay in his mf lane. But will he? 😧