Kitty's Life for Show!

popularity and relationships

Sigh, I really don't want to dose this but I have to.

Why is it that when people choose who they want to date they go for looks, always the looks. See not many people like me in that way because I'm not really the looker... They also chose by popularity which in my case I'm not a nobody but not popular, (the populars  in my class are my friends only because I've known them forever) then their are my friends who go out on limbs and say I should go out with so and so or such And such when I dont want to because they are my closet friends... I always hate it how every time I got asked out (4 times only said to 2 of them) I got asked out thought one of his friends or in someone's case his sister... then they brake up with with a note... That's why I pick and choose who I tell my crushes too... But like seriously though I'm not afraid to have a boyfriend I'm afraid of having a broken heart, but me only having a boyfriend twice makes me wonder what makes me so different from other girls that they don't ask me out? Sometimes I wonder if it's because I'm imtimading sometimes (which I use to My advantage sometimes to get my way(and that is only on stuff like would you please stop talking about that kinda things)) is it because you don't want an emo girl or a killjoy or a car crashes heart or a dieheart cus trust me you can all of those in me, is it because you don't like unnatural hair colors (I'm the only one at my school who dyes their hair every couple months , I get dirty look s from teacher because of and piercings) is it because I don't wear short clothes or I only wear eyeliner and mascara I hardly do my hair or care how I dress, I just want to know what makes me so undateable because in some ways I know a lot of girls who are similar to me and you dated them, what makes me and difference because you know when I graduate college and my music career takes off I would like to to still be able to have a faimly but apparently that would probably never happen. Gods I'm so glad none of my school friends have wattpad