Kitty's Life for Show!

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Ok so you know how I have pericings and I dye my hair right? But do you know whY? No? Ok I'll tell you. So I dye my hair because it let's me be me and I also do it for attention from my mom even if it was a punishment because well she never spends anytime with me and my brother so I guess you can say we lock yourself and our rooms and over the years that she has done this we have became hermits, I thought that maybe if I didn't ask to dye my hair and just told dad it was fine when I came back she would at least give me some attention, nope, do you think I asked her for my piercings no I got them for the same reason, but there is always more. My pericings and the coloring of my hair are just who I am it's hard to explain and kinda sounds weird as well but it's My blood to do this. When god created me he put things in there that I yearn to do, like music or hair coloring or pricing to finally realize who I am even if I don't know all of it. Its just that markers aren't always going to work an it will get to the point that I have to lock away my razors and I don't want that to happen. I know nobody will always be happy but I don't ever want it to get to the point I try to take my own life.  The thing is when I'm at home the only people I have there is my brother and a cat, at school I only have the teachers because I'm so lost in the world right now I don't even know who are really my friends and who are the ones who pity me. At my mom's house I can't be myself without getting trouble, because I guess girls can't have messy hair or can't read comic books or play video games but some do! At my dads I have more of a freedom, if I asked him of I could get a new video game he will say we will see or wait till Christmas or do so much work and ill get it. But the only problem there is only one friend lives there. The other kids in my neighborhood don't care bout me. So there's a of piece of me, you now know more about me and well how I feel.