Love is Stupid • hemmings a.u

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"I'm really nervous about this..." Luke says kissing down my neck, stopping at the top of my breast.

I giggle, "Luke, please I really want this."

I really appreciate that Luke never pressured me to have sex, or begged to have it, since he knew how it makes me feel. After having Autumn, I was terrified to get pregnant again, or even to have sex. I didn't want to to go through the same thing that Ashton and I had to go through. 

Luke started to kiss me again, obviously trying to avoid going further since he is surprisingly so nervous. I decide to take action and move my hands down to his jeans to undue to them. First I start to rub his bulge through his jeans to give him a hint that I'm not playing around when I said I wanted to have sex.

He gasps and starts to kiss me harder. Once I get his jeans undone and off, he starts kissing me down to my stomach, stopping at my most sensitive area. Luke slides my jeans right off my legs, leaving me in my plain black Victoria Secret underwear. He places a kiss over my underwear and I let out a quiet moan. 

As Luke's hands land on the waste band of my underwear- of course he has to stop there "Luke I swear to God..." I groan in annoyance. 

"Sorry..." He mumbles.

He continues by taking them all the way off, finally. Luke spreads my legs apart and places his mouth on my lower part. I gasp and tug at the sheets. My breathing begins to get heavy and I feel myself start to sweat a bit. 

"Okay, I'm ready," I couldn't help but laugh when I see Luke pops his head up.

"Luke, why are you being so awkward about this?" 

He hovers over me placing his hand on my cheek with wonders in his eyes. I never seen anyone looking at me the way that Luke is right now. He's looking at me with such lust, passion, and-

"Love-" I accidentally say aloud and slap my hands over my mouth. 

Before I could even question if he heard me or not, his eyes lit up with happiness. I didn't mean for that to even come out, especially like that. I don't even know if I love Luke, I mean I do love him, but do I love him? 

"I love you," he says without hesitation.

Ashton was right... Luke does love me and I don't know what to do about it. 

"Oh god," I slapped my hands over my face, Luke attempts to remove them so I can look at me, but I hold my hands tightly on my face. "love is stupid," I mumbled. 

"What? Ana what are you saying? baby look at me," I peaked my eye out a little bit, seeing a very sad Luke, so I remove my hands to give him my full attention. 

"I'm sorry, its just... I just... I just don't know what or how I feel about this," I honestly say. 

Luke sighed and got off of me looking for his boxers, slipping them on once he found them across the room. Tears started to fall from my eyes, because I know what is going to happen next, and its not what I wanted to happen. 

"I'm going to stay at a hotel or something, I can't look at you or Ashton right now," He harshly said. 

As he started putting his clothes back on I got out of the bed running to him, wrapping my whole body around him. Thinking that it would make him change his mind, Luke gently unwrap me from him, shaking his head at me. 

"Luke please," I plead with tears streaming down my face. 

He didn't say anything. 

"Luke please, I just got so nervous," I attempt on putting my arms around him once again, but he held his hands out in front of him, signalling no. 

"What do you want me to say, Luke" I say getting angry now, Luke's eyes widen at my outburst  "That I love you? because I do you asshole! I love you, okay?" I start hitting his chest making him back up into the wall. "I love you, you d ick, I love you and I hate you!" I scream at him one last time before turning my back on my walking towards my bed. 

I was stopped in my tracks by Luke's hand tugging on my upper arm. Swinging me around pulling my into a tight embrace, running his fingers through my hair trying to sooth me down. It worked very well. 

"Let me show you how much I love you," Luke whispered into my ear, causing goosebumps to spread across my body. 

***

"Anastasia!" I jolted up from my sleep from my dad's yell. 

I look over and see a naked Luke laying right beside me, still sound asleep. I place a kiss on his cheek, then put of the quickest items of clothing I could find. 

I ran down stairs into the kitchen where I see my dad standing by the island with his arms crossed. 

"Yes?" I raise an eyebrow.

"I want to take you and Luke out tomorrow night for dinner, if thats alright?" I gasped, surprised at the fact that my father actually wants to get to know someone I am dating.

Of course he knew Ashton, but he never liked him. However, he's been liking Luke over the passed couple of months, he won't admit it, but this clearly states that he does. 

"Yeah of course, I'll talk to Luke about it," I smiled, walking back towards the stairs to my room.

I see that Luke is no longer asleep, but he's still laying on the bed playing on his phone. Once he sees me he has the biggest smile spread across his face. 

"babe, you have to see this pic that Ashton just sent me of Autumn eating a jar of frosting for breakfast," he laughed.

We literally laugh for about twenty minutes about the most adorable picture of Autumn. We also decided to take her out today around the city, with Ashton's okay of course. 

"Listen, I need to tell you something," Luke says getting all serious now. 

"What is it?" I ask concerned.

"You already had said you loved me before you birthday..." my eyes widen. "but you were asleep, I knew you meant it though," he brushed a stand of hair behind my ear. 

I played with his fingers while I thought of what to say to him. I remember having a dream about telling Luke I loved him first, but I wanted to wait for him to tell me he loved me first for some stupid reason. 

I wish I didn't make such a big deal last night when he told me that he loved me, but I was so frustrated about having sex and then my stupid thought came out of my mouth, it just didn't go the way I wanted it to. That's in the past though and now we both know that we love another and thats all that matters. 

"Let's get ready," I say hopping out of bed, before I could shut my bathroom door, I looked over at Luke, who still has his eyes fixed on me. 

"I love you with all my heart, Nirvana" Luke bits his lips. 

"And I love you with all my heart, Rebel." 

A/N

Okay so its been quiet sometime since I updated, but I was depressed for a while, but its all good now, I'm happy and well now. 

I also didn't edit this, I will later though. Also, sorry for the sucky update, it will be better next time, this was just a filler. 

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