Fighting Feelings

Chapter 4

The car ride back home was silent . I dont think she looked at me not one time . I didnt have the words right now . I pulled in my drive way and turned off the engine . India quickly got out but so did I . She was walking home but I pulled her back and smashed my her lips into mine .I wrapped my arms around her waist to keep her from pushing away . Somehow she broke the kiss but instead of doing anything we stared at each other . I loosened my grip on her . We just kept stareing , my mind was telling me to take her inside but I couldnt move . This moment felt good . But then she turned around and walked off . Now this moment was hurting .

A minute or two after she went in the house I went into mines . " Bishop is that you ?" oh shit good thing I didnt bring India here . I didnt even notice they were back . " yea its me " . My mom came down the stairs and hugged me " whats wrong ", she started touching my face . " nothing im good ,how was ur trip? " I tried to change the subject but I knew it wasnt going to work . She grabbed my chin " dont lie Bishop " . I guess I need to talk to someone " I think I hurt India " she let go of my chin " it looks like she hurt you too " . We walked into the living room and sat on the couch . I sat in the middle she sat on the left facing me . " tell me what happened " . " ight so we were at a party I left India to catch up with my friends but then I saw she was catching up with Keke and they dissapeared" . she cut me off "for one you shouldnt habe left India something could have happened but go on finish . " She was right but I wont thinking but anyways " so some girl came to me we were dancing then when I went to sit down she got in my lap I felt on her a little and India saw it and didnt talk to me the whole way back " . She rolled her eyes and slapped the back of my head" boy I should slap the shit out you , you know you like India and she like you just as much . Id be mad at you too how would you feel if you saw her in another nigga lap and he feeling on her " she was right but damn she always gotta hit a nigga . She slapped my head again " listen boy " ," I am I am " I started rubbing the back of my head . "like I was saying dont play with her feelings Bishop you dont wanna loose your best friend " .

Loosing my best friend travled all threw my mind . "Damn it" I cussed under my breathe . How fucking stupid could I be . I couldnt sleep not with how the way things ended with India. I don't want her thinking I'm playing with her and her feelings . Thats the last thing I wanna do. I just don't want to regret shit and end up not talking to each other . I can't afford to loose what we have but im willing to be a man and suck up my pride and tell her how I really feel . I hopped out the bed and threw a white t-shirt and gray sweats on . I crepped down the stairs and out the door .I sneaked over the grass like a slave in the underground railroad . I grabbed a small rock by a tree and threw it aganist her window . I threw a second one and her window opened up . She glared down at me ," can we talk " .

She closed her window damn she gonna make a nigga climb a tree . I rubbed my hands together and got ready to attack the tree but I heard footsteps . India's footsteps , we stood about three feet apart . She had a red blanket wrapped around her . " I dont want to mess up our friendship" , I broke the slience . I could she was searching for words .I felt worse I didnt mean to hurt her feelings . " Neither do - " , she looked down . I stepped foward taking baby steps then lifted her head up .

"Don't hate me ", I meant that looking into her eyes . Somewhere along the line we manged to lock lips . . again . Neither one of us broke away . The racing of tongues dancing felt calm . My hands wrapping around her waist felt like they belong there . Her finger tips brushed against my cheek as we contuined kissing .

- India's P.O.V -

I pulled his bottom lip breaking away the kiss leaving us both breathless . We stared at each other , his hands still locked around me . The kiss meant alot , a whole lot but not sure to its true meaning is yet ..We both were clueless but he pulled me back kissing me deeper we fell on the ground laughing a bit but kept on kissing . Being ontop of him lips locked never felt better .When the kiss ended a smile painted arcoss my face along with one on his . We laid side by side with each other .The way he was licking his lips made me want to make the ground shake but I wasnt about to do that . I needed answers about us so I asked " What does this mean ?" . He took his good ass time trying to answer me . I sat up "Hellooo ? " , waving my hand in his face . " Gimmie till tommorow " , "Tommorow ? " . He stook his head , this nigga lost his damn mind but I cant blame him for trying think it over . He probuably trying to see if he wanna give up all his hoes for me . ". . Alright " .Thats all I could say . I just know he better not be playing games with me . " I 'm going to bed " I did still have plans to be with my dad ..

When I woke up it was 8 o'clock on the dot . I reached for my phone and sent out my Good morning texts and tweets . My dad was going to be here at 11 . So I wasted no time getting ready . I put my shower playlist on and jumped in the shower . I sent more time in the shower than I expected just couldn't stop having my own little concert . I was going to get back on my normal routine with doing my hair but Shoulda let you go by Keyshia Cole came on . I was singing all into my hairbrush I hadnt done that in a minute but I quickly got back on track when it went off .

I didnt use heat I just let it be curly and wild but not to wild. I threw on some jean shorts and a white tank . I wanted to cover myself but not ne hot at the same time . I throw on a light jacket and headed downstairs . I grabbed a hot pocket out the frezzer and pop that bitch in the oven . I dont like mines all soft and shit . I gave it about ten minutes and took it out . I blew it cool as I scrowled down my instagram timeline , liking a few pictures on the way ."Good Morning " Jermone made his way into the kitchen . " Morning " I left out the kitchen . I couldnt be in the same room with him made me feel werid inside.

I finished crushing my hotpocket and answer the phone . " Come on " , was all my dad said . Dang cant even get a hi . I hungup and shoved my phone in my bag . I went straight out the door without saying bye to anyone . I hopped in my dads big ass esclade "whats up " . He just nodded and we did our little handshake . He let out a chuckle at the end and sped off . I love that my dad drives hella fast , I fucking hate slow ass drivers . Make me want to hit they ass but I wouldnt wanna mess up my car .