Fighting Feelings

Chapter 13

"- India's P.O.V-

Its been a week since I smelled fresh air . Seems like ages since I seen the green grass and beautiful blue sky . All I've seen was white walls and a tv . I haven't talked much my family tries to get my social meter up but it fails to work. Bishops been by everyday . We stare at each other sometimes but I don't let it last long .

knock knock

My aunt came through the door with follows and a teddy bear . I slightly smiled . " You ready to get out and smell the fresh air ". Hell yea I was ready . I so ready I was already dressed just sitting on the bed . She handed me the teddy bear . He was brown with a red bow around his neck he held a red heart. He was just so cute he wasn't a small bear but wasn't a huge one either . He was big enough to hide my face behind.

Aunt Kalya held out her hand for me to take I felt like a litte kid . I grew custom to her touch . She was the only one who touched me besides the nurses . We walked down the hall together . A few people stared at me walking thru the waiting room . My face was still fucked up . I wanted to pop off at everyone who was staring but I just kept my cool and kept it moving . I was getting closer to the outdoors .I could see the sunoh how much I've missed it . I few steps and I could already hear the annoying ass birds but I just glad to see them. Hell I was glad I walking out this hospital I was glad I was diease free and alive .

" Well girly you made it out " . I squinted my eyes due to the bright ass sun and looked around .I guess I did. After a minute of taking it in we hopped in the car with uncle D . I was surprised my dad didn't pick me up . We haven't talked about the situation well we really haven't talked much due to me not really talking. He's tried his best to comfort me .

I would now be living with my father not that I was mad about it . Just disspointed it had to happen now because of the "situation" . I begged my father before to let me stay with him . But its whatever . His house isn' t to far from my mothers house . Ten minute ride . My father had a nice home for himself .Three store including the basement , four bedroom , six bathroom , den , pool outside , and a two car garage . He lived in a nice neighbor some people were stuck up tho .

But to my surpise we didn't pull up to my fathers house . Maybe he got a new house ? Why because it was close to my mothers ? He didn' t have to give up his home for me . This house was just as beautiful it had a walk way with different flowers tracing it .It reminded me of my grandmothers house .I walked in after my aunt and uncle .

"Surprise " yelled a bunch of family members. I grabbed my chest geez they wanna give somebody a damn heart attack . My grandmother came from the crowd giving me a warm filling hug . I wished my grandmother couldn't see me like this . I know she was just heart broken when she heard . They say she was crying up a storm just going off . She gave me a warm smile " I'm so glad your ok baby " . I smiled then turned my attention to the crowd of family memebers . They greated me with nothing but love . I had no problem with hugging my aaunts , cousins but my uncles and male cousins didn't really get anything but a one arm hug . I'm sure they understood .

Minutes after few questioning and my sort answers my grandmother saved me pulling me into the kitchen . I sat down at the "kids" table while my grandmother attended to her cooking . The smell of fried chicken , mashed poatoes, green beans , and corn beard hit my nose . My absolute favorite meal . She gave me a small plate with a chicken leg and a piece of corn beard she would always sneak me a early plate before dinner time .She rubbed my back sitting down next to me .

I knew there were many things she wanted to say . I ate at my chicken to avoid eye contact with her . I could feel her looking at me . "Is it good ?" . I shook my head . Truth was it was better than good it was amazing even tho I eat chicken all the time . None was like Nanas . After I finished she took my plate away .I looked around admiring her paintings on the wall . I loved her watercolor paintings I wanted to get back on my paintings skills .

" Oh hey Jayceon baby" I turned around to see my grandmother hugging my father . My father name was Jayceon but everyone called him Cali . He's from Compton, California.. one of the hoodest places in California . So you should know my father dont play games . I turned back around in my seat looking back at the paintings . My father stood beside me kissing my forehead before taking a seat . "I got something for you" . He reached in his pocket pulling out my phone . I just hoped he didn't go threw it . "Dont worry I didn't go through it I went through one thing only" . I wasn't surprised . My eye rose up "what you go through?". He got up " you'll find out later " . Oh god is he gonna have the sex talk with me .I can asure you I won't be having sex for a while . Cali walked over to grandmother trying stick his finger in the the bowl of mashed poatoes . " what yall make for desert ?" he asked rubbing his stomach like he was carring a baby . Nana tapped his forehead with a spoon " well I made India a strawberry cake and brownies " . I smiled knowing those of two of my favorites . My father face dropped and his hand stopped in the middle of his stomach " ma thats all you cooked " . She looked at him tapping her spoon on his forehead again . " yes boy now help take this food to the table ". Before grabbing anything daddy ran to the door shouting dinner time letting everybody know . Nana shook her head daddy was such a silly boy . I placed my phone in my pocket before grabbing the bowl of mashed poatoes . My nana was still taking chicken out the pan . She always bout the meat out last .

Once I placed the bowl down on the table I took a seat next to my aunt which was a chair down from my nana's she sat at the end of the table while my grandpa sat the other end . He wasn't here yet tho well as far as I know . Everyone started taking their seats . She opened the kitchen door placing a stopper so the kids were in sight .My father and grandpa came out the garage . I swear they look just alike grandpa still had muscles he wasn' t that old well to me he wasn't 54 my nana was 52. My dad was 34.

My father sat next to me while grandapa sat at the end of the table . Prayer was led by grandpa . " Lord thank for the food we're about to recieve . Thank you for my lovely wife that prepared it . Thank you for my beautiful family . Most importantly thank you for still letting India be here healthy as ever few brusies but thats ok lord she's here and thats all that matters . Ahem" . After everyone said there ahem the food got passed around .