The Deaf Luna (Book Three of the Senses Series)

Chapter Eight

{Eight}

*Shaye*

February 12, 2054

The visit with my grandparents was short but sweet. They admire Colton... eating up every word he says as he tells childhood stories.

My favorite was when he explained a scar he has above his right eyebrow... I never noticed it before. Perhaps it's because I try to avoid looking into his eyes... Bad things happen when I do. Like the uncontrollable urge to toss him on a bed and satisfy my wolf's hunger.

Colton was playing with Nile, around the age of five. He said he couldn't exactly remember. They were playing in the backyard, tussling like the average male youth. Colton's mother tried to break up the play to tell them lunch was ready. Nile was a little disrespectful, cursing out his mother. Colton was furious, "I was very protective of my mother" Colton had said. He tackled Nile to the ground, growling with anger. However, Nile was six years older than him and managed to get from under Colton. He threw a harsh blow to Colton's head, cutting open his brow.

The reason it's my favorite story was the way Colton defended his mother. The man before me has never changed over the past twenty four years. He is devoted and loyal, and will do what he believes is right. I admire that in a man.

Plus.... He's a mama's boy. Who doesn't love that?

Grandma gave me an extra long hug before we left, crying in my shoulders. I knew she was hurting... Having just lost her daughter was hard... It doesn't help I'm a near spitting image of my mother. She probably sees Mae in me, just as my father does.

Grandpa gave Colton another threat, but we all knew there was no need. Colton is kind and civil... He is a gentleman and I can tell with the way he looks at me; he's already in love. He'd never hurt me.

Knowing Colton loves me tears at my heart... This man deserves the best kind of mate out there. He deserves someone who is whole and will love him every day of his life. Someone who will devote her life to him, just has he has already to me.

I will love Colton the rest of my life... That is for certain. But I feel as though there is apart of me that is missing. My relationship with my mother was dependent and in a way, unhealthy. I relied on her being with me all the days I needed. When I get married, or after the night of my mating. Or when I have my first child.

I know Colton will never let me go. I also know I never want to leave him. But I can't help but feel ashamed.

He does deserve so much better.

***

The ceremony wasn't grand- Appointing ceremonies never are. The whole pack is gathered, however it is only a few minutes long. I stand in front of everyone with Nile, facing him; almost as if we were getting married. I say my vows, cutting all ties to the Cipher pack and relinquishing myself to the Prowler pack.

Nile says his own vows, claiming me as his female Beta. At the end of it, we both cut our palms and join them, letting our blood mingle and drip into a bowl.

I can feel the snapping force of my line with my family breaking. It causing great heartache and a throbbing of the head.

Then, I feel myself weaken, as the Alpha power is drained out of me. I fall to my knees, letting out a loud scream as I feel the wolf inside of me struggle. She is fighting to keep what is rightfully ours, while the ceremony is changing us. The wolf I will now possess will be significantly smaller, weaker. I will lose all sense of control I had, I will no longer be able to defend myself the way I used to.