Will it Last?(Sequel to Was it Love?)-Niall Horan Fanfic

Chapter 11

Niall's P.O.V.

I poured myself a shot of vodka and sucked back. After that shot slid down my throat, I poured another.

"Fuck me," I said holding the glass up in the air before slamming it back. I leaned back in my chair. I ran my finger around the rim of the glass, wondering if I should pour another. My life is fallen apart in front of my eyes. So many secrets, so many lies, so many feelings are getting in the way. I wish I was mean, cruel and selfish because it would make all this easier. But I have to admit my evil side did come out. It wasn't fair to leave Isabella like that but my anger took control. I had no idea what was running through my head at that moment.

"Hey rough night?" I heard a sweet voice from behind me. I felt small hands start to rub my shoulders.

"Ya you could say that," I replied to Katelyn.

"She didn't sign the papers did she?" she said, letting go of my shoulders.

"No she did," I said flatly. Katelyn came around in front sitting on the foot rest in front of me.

"You don't sound too happy, what's wrong?" she asked rubbing my knee. I looked her in the eyes. And that's when I realized something. I let out a deep sigh.

"Katelyn, she's pregnant."

"Wha-what?" she said standing up. "It's not yours right?!"

"It's mine Katelyn, she wouldn't lie to me," I said standing up.

"I can't believe this. When did you find out?"

"Uh a couple days ago," I said quietly.

"And you didn't tell me?!"

"I know I should have told you. I'm so sorry," I said reaching my hand out to comfort her.

"Niall I just don't think I can take anymore surprises," she said looking down.

"Katelyn, I just don't know if this-" I started to say slowly.

"Save it Niall. I knew this was going to happen one day but I chose to ignore it," she said looking up at me. I noticed the tears in her eyes.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I always knew you would leave me for her. I knew that you always loved her more. I thought maybe, just maybe I could be the one until one day I found your wedding ring in your pocket," she said sniffling.

"Kate-"

"I chose to ignore it and just fell in love with idea of a guy who treats me right and cares for me. You never look at me the way you look at her. And I know you wear the necklace, I'm not oblivious. You just can't let her go, which means you still have feelings for her."

"I loved you, you know that? I never faked feelings for you," I said walking closer.

"I know. It's just that you love her more," she said putting on half smile. I pulled her into a hug.

"I'm sorry," I whispered in her ear.

"Don't apologize, just go and be happy. Go be with your soul mate," she whispered back.

"Thank you. Thank you so much," I said pulling away. I grabbed her hands in mine.

"Here," she said, breaking our hold. She twisted her ring off of her finger and placed it in my palm. "Don't mess up this time," she said winking.

"I won't," I said pulling her into another embrace. I kissed her on the cheek before letting go. "Now if you excuse me there's someone else I have been lying to."

Isabella's P.O.V.

I paced back in forth in my living room. I paced so much,that if I paced anymore, my floor would wear away.

"Keep it together Isabella. You don't need him, your fine on your own," I told myself. I wiped my tears with the back of my sleeve. "Calm down, just breathe like Harry told you." Nothing I did helped me stop crying though. When Niall and I separated, I cried for like a week straight night and day. I never realized that getting your heart broken would mean that you actually felt your heart break, but I did. I literally felt a pain in my chest that wouldn't go away. It never went away.

I should have told him that I love him because now he is gone forever. Signing those papers meant that I gave him total freedom. He was probably packing up right now, ready to start over with his new love of his life. I have officially been replaced. There is no hope in Niall and I ever getting back together now. I always had that little spark of hope that he would come to his senses and realize that it was me he wanted to be with. But Niall stomped on that spark, smothering it, putting it out, never to be reignited again.

I couldn't do this any more. I had to get out. I looked outside and noticed it was raining. I grabbed my jacket from the hooks beside the door, doing it up, it tight against my huge body. I waddled outside, locking the door behind me.

The rain was coming down hard, it soaking my pants and hair. It was a warm rain though, it comforting me as it hit my face. I took a deep breath in smelling the wet grass scented air. There was nothing like the smell of the cool crisp air when it was raining. The scent calmed me down, taking my mind off things. It reminded me of London, the foggy, rainy mornings in the spring. I would always go out and walk through the park, watching the people go by. I would always wonder what their life was like compared to mine. Their lives were normal, mine was not. Even though my life wasn't normal, not once did I ever wish for their lives. If I wished for their lives, I would be giving away mine, which I would be giving away Niall. And I loved him far too much to give him up. Which was ironic, because I just did.