It had been a week since Hansol and I stopped sleeping together. But it had also marked a week since we would call each other at night and sing to one another.
But today, I wanted him to rap to me in person. So I knocked on his door, his little sister greeting me happily. She let me go to his room, so I did. I entered his room without knocking and he was just listening to music.
"What you up to?" He turned and smiled at me, but I could see his red puffy eyes. I rushed to him and hugged him.
"What's wrong?" He didn't reply to me, which made me feel a bit uneasy.
"I'm sleeping with you today. Is that alright?" I felt him nod against my head. I smiled at him. All of a sudden my heart started beating a bit faster. Just a bit. I was just nervous. That was all. It started beating like the way it used to beat for Jeonghan when I first liked him. That meant something. I didn't want it to.
I ignored it. I didn't want to excite Hansol. Tell him that I might like him and then distance myself. That wouldn't be fair to the wonderful boy. Wouldn't be fair to him, who deserves everything.
"Can I do something?" He took my hand in his, his thumb caressing it softly.
"Yeah. Well, as long as you don't kill me I think we'll be fine." He let out a small laugh, so I laughed too. He let go of my hand, so I turned to look at him. Like that, he grabbed my face and cupped my cheeks. He leaned in and so did I. He kissed me. It was slow and gentle. He kissed me almost as if, if he went any rougher I'd break like glass. He held me gently and honestly that was probably the best kiss of my life.
He didn't try to shove his tongue into my mouth and instead was careful about his movements. I like that about him. I like it a lot.
But the moment he pulled away for air he realized what he had done. And the amount of regret on his face was so obvious. I wanted to tell him it was okay but for some reason I kept my mouth shut. He said the very words I was scared of hearing.
"Get out."
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Edited August 12th, 2016
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