Left Behind | JiHan

Thank you, but no (13B)

Vernon and I hadn't contacted each other in 38 hours and counting. It pained me lots, but he told me to get out. So I decided that not only would I get out from his room, but from his life too. Not because he wanted me too. Because I realized if I stayed longer I'd harm him. I didn't wanna do such a thing to such a good guy.

"Are you okay? You've been looking like a ghost lately. I thought you were getting better but it's coming back." I looked up at Seokmin and shook my head. "M'fine, just tired." It didn't look like he bought it but he didn't comment on it either. That was good.

"Hansol's coming. Hide all the food you have on you, boy's an animal." I laughed at the joke and Seokmin laughed too. In the end, Seokmin was the best.

Life's a joke. I should remember that. I keep on forgetting lately.

"Joshua! We have to talk!" He was so lucky the cafeteria was mostly empty. If not, he would have created such a scene with his yelling. "What about?" I attempted to act innocent. Clearly didn't work. "Come with me." Doing the classic K-Drama move, he gripped my left wrist and pulled me out of the cafeteria and took me to a janitor's closet.

"What? I was with my new best friend there, thank you very much." Humor. It wasn't going to fix this. Not in the slightest. "I'm you're best friend! I always will be! Now I want to talk about what happened yesterday." I didn't make eye contact. Then I'd probably cry, I would probably tell him he should never show his face to me again.

"What about it? We kissed. It was nice. Then you said get out. So I did. Let's forget about-"

"No! Joshua I don't want to forget about it. I want what we have to blossom. Please."

It took guts, but I looked up and locked eyes with him. Blossom? Our relationship blossom? "I'm sorry, but no." I didn't think I'd say that. But I did. It took Hansol by surprise too.

"Why not?"

"I don't want to mistake my feelings for you. What if you're just a rebound and I'm confused? I don't want to hurt you like that, Hansol. Let's just, forget about it?" I didn't want to. It was probably a selfish thing to ask of him. But it was all not to hurt him. "No. Never will I give up on you. I don't mind being a rebound either Jisoo. Man, I love you. So please, stop being a bitch and man up to your feelings!"

I laughed aloud. "Maybe I do need to stop being a bitch. But let me tell you something: thank you, but no. No one wants to be a rebound. I don't want to hurt you." And that was that. I left him in the closet and I see the tears threatening to spill from his eyes. But I chose not to believe it. If I was lucky, Hansol didn't love me. If I was lucky, he was just confused.

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Edited August 12th, 2016