Don't worry, I'm fine (16A)

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As I right this, I laugh my butt off. Because honestly, you, Jeonghan, pretended to care after tearing me apart. You literally told me to fuck off and go suck off my best friend.

Does that not sound like it would hurt? Because if you're that obviously, I pity you. I sincerely pity you. Because not a day went buy that my heart didn't hurt thanks to your words. It went on for a bit, until well . . . my friends started cheering me up. It was small things like visiting me in class that made me happy. And on a Thursday, you decided that you had the right to visit me.

"Jisoo-ah!" 

Oh, so we were back to Jisoo? Not Joshua? Okay, well, whatever. "Please noona, tell him I'm busy," I plead from an old female friend. She nodded and flashed me a smile, getting up to do what I asked for. She had confessed to me last year, but I think she was dating Minhyuk now.

Maybe not though. Minhyuk was on the basketball team, so he had the popularity to switch girlfriends like he switched shoes.

"Don't lie to me! He's right there," I heard, pretending to not pay attention. You entered my classroom anyway, taking the seat that belonged to noona. "Jisoo, how's everything?" You tried to reach out for me, but I got up, not wanting your touch. "Yah, you're making a scene. Let's talk about it." I nodded my head, coming to my senses.

'Finally' I had thought, 'we were going to talk about it.' Wrong. We were going to talk about something else.

"Please, don't spread rumors about me after what you saw that time. It won't be fun for neither of us. I hope I didn't break your heart that badly. After all Jisoo, you could have anyone you want. You're cute like that." I wanted to smack you. Spread rumors? I flinch at the mention of your name, Jeonghan. You think I have the courage to spread rumors?

Break my heart that badly? Guess what, you did.

I'm cute? Clearly, not cute enough.

"What's wrong anyway, you've been seeming quite pale lately." I shook my head, knowing that if I spoke, it'd give me away. My urge to cry would be given away. That's what I least wanted, honestly. It wasn't something that I was okay with doing in front of you Jeonghan. Which is weird, since now I think I can talk to you without stuttering. Without a single tear. Without fear.

"Don't worry, I'm fine."

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Edited August 12th, 2016

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