If I Break (A Niall Horan FanFiction)

Chapter 9-Love Me Back

(A/N: this chapter has some discussion about....the naughty....but nothing happens...it all accrues behind the scene. Maybe I haven't decided how I want...it to happen yet. I don't know. Enjoy!!!!!)

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Chapter 9

Love Me Back

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~*Niall's P.O.V.*~

"I don't wanna rush things though, I don't wanna risk losing you by moving to fast." I mumble as I play with her fingers. Examining each and looking at the little scars scattered. What? "What are all these?" I ask, pointing to all the small healed cuts.

"Yeah. I don't wanna rush into anything either, so for now, let's just be special friends. Oh. And the little scars. Those are all from four wheeling and stuff from when I was in Maine." She mumbles as she traces her fingers along the lines that lay imprinted in my own hands.

I furrow my eye brows, "Four wheeling?" I mumble.

She rolls her eyes, "Yes. I use to live in the country." She says happily with a bashful smile, "anyway. We agree to just be friends for now and see where it takes us?" E asks.

I smile. I look over at her and nod before I drop her hand and stand up, "I have a surprise for you." I smile cheekily before I walk over to the fridge. I lean in and pull out the grocery bag. I open it and pull out the single item. "Trail mix!" I sing-song to her. Shaking not only the bag but my whole body.

She smiles but then a look of disgust covers her face, "As in raisins?" I nod. "EW! EW! EW!" She stands up on the chair she was in and shoos me away, "get those wrinkly little monsters away from me!" She squeals.

I laugh, dropping the bag of trail mix on the table. I run over to the cupboard and grab a bowl. Sitting it on the table and pouring the trail mix into the bowl. I begin to stir through, trying to find all the "wrinkly little monsters" in the words of the lovely Eva.

"I'm gonna go take a shower." E mumbles, running her hand through her hair before skipping past me and patting my head like a dog.

I watch her walk into her bedroom and close the door

Good, time to think about today's events.

Eva and I kissed. Then she says we would be better just to stay friends for now. She likes me but doesn't want to risk our friendship. Well I don't wanna be just friends. I'm in fucking love with the girl and all I want is to call her mine. I want to hold her to me every night and I want to be able to kiss her whenever I want. And a friendship wont allow that. And it sucks.

I push the bowl over to the other side of the side board and walk into the living room. Bella and Charlie are curled up in a small ball on Charlie's bed. Shelia and Carlos are playing under the coffee table while the five newborns sleep in Bella's bed. I walk over to the five pups and pick up the Zayn puppy. His eyes have yet to open, him being the only one. The other puppies already have. I kiss his little nose before putting him back down and picking up the Niall puppy. I don't really wanna keep him. I mean, I already love all the puppies but, I don't want five dogs. I'm thinking I'll give him to my mum or something. I sit him back down with the other pups and walk into my bedroom. I close the door and lock it. Falling on my back on the bed, I sigh loudly. Running my hands over my face, I sit back up and walk into my bathroom and turn the shower on. I strip out of my clothes quickly and step in the shower. I dump some axe body wash on a wash cloth and begin to clean my body. I wash my hair quickly but pause as I hear the door open to my bathroom. I could have sworn I locked the door.