"Don't"

Chapter 8 - Going Nowhere

|Alexus🌹|

I tossed and turned in my bed unable to sleep with this empty space next to me. I often found myself leaning over to feel his touch only to realize he's not there and if he's not there, then where is the hell is he?

Fed up, I got into a sitting position. Tears fell down my face knowing that he's probably out there being unfaithful to me.

I mean, why else would he be gone for days and days and sometimes even nights. To be honest, I can't even remember the last time I saw him and that's sad.

I looked on the nightstand and took my phone off of the charger.

The bright light of the screen bothered my eyes and caused me to have to squint as I looked for Corey's contact name. Next thing I knew, I was dialing My World😍💍.

I felt somewhat relieved when his line answered. I said hello a few times, but I didn't get one in return.

I came to realization that the call was picked up on accident when I heard a couple of voices in the background. One was him and the other was a female.

"You need to go home to her. I mean, what if she finds out," I heard the female clearly. Corey chuckled as if what she said was never going to happen. He never bothered to respond to her either.

Both of them stayed silent and the only thing I could hear was the sound of my heart racing. It seemed so loud that I was convinced that they could hear it too.

"I can't stand sharing you, I want you all to myself," the female finally spoke.

It seemed as if it was a confession she's been holding back on telling him based off of the way she said it.

"Come on now, I just ended her call for you. Did I not? What we have ain't even like that no more, I told you that baby. You're the only girl I'm focused on. I just live with her and that's all," he clearly lied.

"You promise," she asked.

"I promise."

Seconds later I heard the sound of kissing. I sat there with my jaw dropped wanting this all to be a dream, but it's not.

I hung the phone up then threw it out of anger. It hit the wall before marking it's territory on the hard wood flooring somewhere.

I felt my whole world come crashing down and my heart shattering once again. I grabbed on to the sheets on my bed and rocked back and forth as tears began to pour down like a waterfall.

My whole entire body got swallowed by my emotions at once and I felt myself losing all control. I screamed at the top of my lungs frustrated with all these questions running through my mind.

What did I do to deserve this? What am I doing wrong? What can I do to fix this? It is me or is it him? Am I not good enough for him? Is she better than me? Is Sapphire better than me? What the hell is it?

I wanted so desperately to call Jigga, but every since he said he needed space, he's been m.i.a. The last thing I wanted to do was bother him since I seemed to be a pain in the ass to everybody.

I cried like a big ass baby until I fell back asleep. I feel so weak and so sick, I don't know how I'm going to find the energy to function at work tomorrow.

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"Damn shawty, what you walking around here mad for," one of the boys I seated with all of his little friends asked me.