// Anchor //

//30//

I don't eat. I don't drink. I don't sleep. I'm not awake. Not really.
I can hear Tyler talking to me or to somebody else. I can hear Alice screaming and shouting at him for being a dick. I can hear she's crying.
But I can't command my body to move or my brain to really think.

Anyway what I know is that I'm not home. After my breakdown they probably had kept me in the hospital.
Every time the door to my room is opened I hope it's Matty!
He is the only one I want to see.
The only one.

*

Matty's POV

"Hi David!", I enter the record store with a smile.
My eyes wander around expecting May to stand in a corner with her beautiful smile on her lips.
"Hey mate."
Immediately I know that something is wrong. David looks pretty tired and his expression is full of pain.
"What's wrong?"
David sighs. "It's Alice. She got it really hard at the moment. First the big argument with her brother, now May..."
"May? What about her?"
"Oh you don't know? Her grandmother died and May had a breakdown!"
His words are like a slap in my face.
"She had a breakdown? Is she alright?"
"No I don't think so. She doesn't talk to anyone, not with Tyler, the nurses not even with Alice!"
I play it cool, to not show David that my heart has a hard time beating and I can't breathe.
Why didn't I know this? Why didn't I call her?
"Sorry mate. I uhm I have to go!", I mumble and stumble out of the store.

I rush in the hospital looking for anyone to help me.
"Excuse me Miss? I'm looking for a girl her name is May Summer!"
The nurse is looking at me sceptical.
"Are you a relative?"
I hesitate only for a second.
"No I'm her boyfriend."
The nurse is biting her lip. "Actually..."
"Please! She hasn't told me about her nanna. We had an argument and she just left..."
I don't know what makes her agree but she just nods and leads me to a room.
"Don't tell anyone!"
"Okay. Thank you Miss!"

I enter the room. There she is. Her eyes closed, her breath goes up and down. She looks pale...tired...
I take a chair and pull it next to her bed.
"May! Why haven't you called?", I sigh.
I grab her hand and she opens her eyes.
"Matty? ", she breathes.
"Yeah baby. I'm here."
May starts sobbing.
"Matty! Oh my god, finally! You're here."
She wraps her arms around and pulls me to her.
"Shh love. Don't cry!"
"She is dead! My nanna, she-", her voice is breaking.
"I know love!"

We just keep in silence. I stroke her hair, only holding her, while she is crying on my breast.
"You will be fine, babe! We will be fine!"
And for a second I really believe it.
We are talking the whole night.
About us, our future, our partners.

"You know, Tyler has changed the past few months! He needs me...and now...I need him too! More than ever! He knew my nanna..."
"Shh I know what you mean darling. Same with me and Chelsea. We knew each other for years and I cannot really imagine a life without her. Though I don't love her, I think I can't live without her."

We keep sitting there in silence. May in my arms still sobbing.

"Matty?"
"Yeah?"
"We need to tell them."
"What?"
"About...us. If they really love us, and I'm sure they do, they will forgive us."
"And what about us? How will be be able to meet?"
I don't know what she means. Why is she doing this?
May doesn't answer immediately.
"We need to stop seeing each other!"
Now I pull her back to see her face.
"Why should we do this? You love me don't you?"
"I do. But we have said the we cannot live without our partner..."

I think about it. And she is right.
We can't go on like that. It's not fair against Chelsea and Tyler.
I sigh. "You're right, you know?"
She giggles a bit. "I know."
"But before I leave, can I...can I hold you again?"
"You can hold me all night", she breathes and her voice makes my heart beating faster.
I will miss that. I will miss her voice, her scent. The feeling of her in my arms.
Her eyes, when I make her smile, they are sparkling like stars.
May is raising her head and looking at me questioning.
I smile and place my lips on hers.
She gasps and opens her mouth. Our tongues meet and I can hear her moaning.
I tight my grip, press my body against her and she moans again.

We break the kiss, both breathless and she whispers, "I love you"
I close my eyes and mumble against her lips, "I love you too!"

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Hi guys^^
Oh no Matty and May want to stop meeting and tell Tyler and Chelsea about them!:(
Well we'll see how it works out right?
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Ily all and thanks for reading this chapter
Much love, Sarah xx