hold me tight

It's okay

So I know you all hate me for the end of the last chapter. I'm so sorry. Here's the next one. Hope you like it.

- katys part of view -

Every fucking girl would say yes.

I run to the bathroom and cried.

I sat on the floor.

"Babe, please open the door", John said.

I knew that he won't stop knocking so I unlock the door.

He came in and sat in front of me.

"You are mad, right?", I asked.

"A little bit. I don't understand why you run away from me. I'm your boyfriend", he said.

"It's just that I don't want to get married this fast and get hurt again"

John rubbed his forehead.

"What! You think I will hurt you katy? I know your whole fucking story and the last thing I would do is hurting you!", he yelled.

I cried more and more. The last thing I saw was him leaving.

When I would have had say yes, I probably won't have been sure about it.

John was in the bedroom, so I walked in it and saw him laying there.

"I'm sorry", I said while I stand in the door frame.

"For what", he asked.

"Say this to you", I said.

I sat down next to him.

"John. I don't think that you will hurt me. I just want wait a little bit. There is no fucking doubt that you don't love me. I know you love me so much same as I do. I will never leave you. When I will wear a dress again I will maybe break together because it reminds me about Russell. I don't want to think about Russell when I'm marry you. Just you. You will be the one who I will call my husband. You will call me your wife what Russell never did. You will be the father of my childrens and we will be together. I want to marry one last time. And this will be you. But now, it is not the right time. I'm going on tour till October 2015. This a long time. I love you John", I said shyly.

John looked into my eyes the whole time.

A smile came up on his lips.

"You are making me so crazy", he said.

"Come here"

I lay myself beside him and looked in his eyes.

"I love you", he whispered.

He put my hair behind my ear.

"I love you too", I whispered.

John gave me a passionate kiss and I kissed him back. I put my hand on his cheek and went closer to him, that our bodies were touching. The kiss went really passionate and deep. John bite my bottom lip and asked for admission. Our tongues met reallx quick

I felt his hand leaving under my shirt.

So I put his shirt over his hand and touched his bare skin.

I pulled him down, so I lay on top of him.

John pulled back.

"What is it again?" I asked and got up and sat on his lap.

"Don't be so rude. I'm not your puppy", he joked.

I leaned back down and started kissing him.

"Katy", he laughed.

"What's the problem", I said annoyed.

"Maybe we should continue when we are back from your parents house. I will be only yours", he said.

"Sounds great", I smirked and pecked his lips.

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At the Hudson's house.

- katys part of view -

"Katy would you like to help me in the kitchen", Angela asked.

"Of course", I said.

I jumped from the couch and followed her to the kitchen.

"You can make the salad if you want", my sister said.

I nodded.

"What did you brought John for Christmas?", she asked.

"He always wanted such a really expensive cologne, so I bought him it. He is so happy now", I said.

"That really cute", she replied.

"Ange?", I asked shyly.

"Yep", she said.

"John asked me to be his wife"

"Oh my god! What did you say", she asked exited.

I showed her my hand.

"Oh. You said no. What was the problem?", she asked.

"We had a argument about it and he thought I think he will break my heart but I told him that I love him and not I loved Russell. I want to marry him but not now. He will be the father of my kids. When I said this to him he smiled like a 5 year old child", I laughed.

"Oh okay. But it is so sweet what you said to John. He makes you happy. I can see that Kate", Angela said.

I gave her a small smile.

I was happy. One day I will be married. For the very last time.

My parents, Angela, Svend, Davida, John and I ate our huge Christmas dinner and talked about different things.

After about 4 hours we said by to everyone and drove home.

We didn't talked that much during driving but it was still beautiful to just be with him.

"We are there", John said.

I got out of the car and opened the door.

He closed the door behind me and put his shoes and jacket off.

So I walked into the kitchen to grab myself some juice as I suddenly felt two hands on my waist.

John kissed me on my neck which makes me giggle.

I turned around to him and put my lips on his.

I love him so fucking much.

I hopped into his arms and twirled my legs around his waist.

John brought us upstairs and suddenly let me fall on the bed.

He crawled over to me and unbotten his shirt.