hold me tight

I'm not ready

- Johns part of view -

"Let's go back to sleep", katy said.

"Okay, if you need something wake me up", I replied.

"Yes", she said and rubbed her forehead frustrated.

We both lay down and she cuddled up into my chest. I hold her tight.

"I'm here baby"

Slowly we drifted into sleep.

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Next morning

-katys part of view -

"You are starting May the 7th in Belfast, England", Bradford said.

"Okay, we have the choreography. So we need to play the whole show for like 3-4 times, to see if everything works", I said.

"yep, is everything okay with you?", Tamra asked.

"Why are you asking"

"You seem so lazy and tired", she said.

"Ya maybe. I vomited tonight and I don't feel that well", I said.

"Go home and relax. We are finish", Bradford said.

I nodded.

I put my jacked on,  took my phone and my keys.

"Bye everyone!", I yelled and waved goodbye.

I walked out of the studio and hopped into my car.

During driving I thought about what happened tonight.

I haven't ate anything wrong in the last time.

The only thing that makes sense it that I'm... Pregnant.

The supermarkets aren't closed yet so I parked my car in front of the market and went in.

Quickly I searched for an pregnancy test. I grabbed one and looked around if anyone saw me.

There was nobody.

I pay for it and drove home.

After 20 minutes I got finally home. I opened the door and pit my purse and jacket down.

John wasn't in the living room so I went upstairs to see for him.

"John?", I yelled.

"I'm here", he replied.

He lay on the bed with his glasses on and read a book.

"Hey, you were only for about 2 hours gone?", he asked surprised.

"I can go, if you want?" I joked.

"No, no. Come here. I missed you"

He grabbed my waist so that I sat down next to him.

John put a piece of my hair behind my ear and I smiled.

I leaned in gave him a kiss on his soft lips.

He continued kissing me and wanted to get closer.

I broke the kiss.

"Sorry I just want to change into some more comfortable clothes okay?", I said.

"Ugh okay. Hurry up", he said.

I walked into the bathroom and took the test. What if I'm pregnant. A baby is probably growing in me. I always wanted a baby but not now. I'm going on tour and there is a baby not that helpful. But when I we be pregnant I'll figure it out. Somehow.

I did the test and stand on in front of the mirror.

I waited till the test said positive or negative.

I looked down and there where two lines.

What the hell does that mean.

On the paper it said that one line is negative. So two lines mean positive...

Shit.

I am pregnant.

I'll be a mother. With John.

How will I tell them. I can't go out and tell him that everything is okay. He has to know the truth.

So I decided to tell it John. He is my boyfriend and it is also his baby. But what if he will be angry.

I walked out of the bathroom with the test behind my back.

"hey, what took you so long", he asked.

He sat up and I sat next to him so I could face him.

"I have to show you something", I said.

He had a curious look in his eyes.

I slowly put the test from my back and hold it up so he could read it.

His face changed into an exited and happy one.

"Katy, you are pregnant!", he yelled.

"Yes I am", I said.

At this point I smiled because I always wanted a baby. But just not now. I don't know how to manage it.

I felt Johns lips on mine and I kissed him back.

He put his forehead against mine.

"I know you will be on tour. Maybe we should go to the doctor tomorrow and see if there is really a baby growing in you", he whispered.

"Yes we really should do this. But please don't be that disappointed when I'm not pregnant okay? This test's aren't always 100%..", I replied.

"Okay, the only thing that matters is that we will have a family one day", john said.

I pecked his lips.

"I love you so much", I whispered.

"I love you too", he replied.

"And you", he continued .

He put my shirt a little bit up and kissed my flat stomach.

A baby is growing in me. This sounds so crazy. But it's true. It isn't sure yet but it feels so real.

John is the one I'm in love with. Forever.