I Can't Help but Want You

Chapter 15

I was driven to school in the limo by the shofer. "Way to make a scene," I thought as we pulled into the parking lot. I had altogether stopped fighting with my parents, I had just resorted to dirty looks and not speaking to them, ever. Henry called me over dramatic and ridiculous but I could care less what they had to say about anything. Who do they think they are, like they knew anything. There were dark circles under my eyes that I hid with sunglasses but of course once I entered the building the teachers would make me take them off. My hair was in a messy bun tied up with a red ribbon that Jasper had given me. My senses had been pushed the the brink of death, I was so numb to everything. I felt like a zombie walking down the halls of my high school.

As always Lexi and Linda were standing by my locker ready to tell me about their weekends. "Hey girl!" Linda said greeting me with a smile. I gave her a fake smile to hide how hurt I was. "So, how was your week off." I shrugged I didn't want to tell them about it, I knew if I started to talk about it that I would just end up falling apart. "Oh come on! tell me, how are things between you and Jasper. I bet you went on a richy winter trip, didn't you! Was it romantic?" She winked and nudged my arm.

"Fine," my voice trembled and my lips shook as I tried to keep a smile.

"Rosey?" Lexi reached up to take off my sunglasses.

"No don't," she took off my glasses. Both of them gasped and looked at me with shock.

"Oh my god! What happened?" Lexi exclaimed.

I burst into tears grabbing ahold of them crying on their shoulders. "They found out, a-and they took him away. H-he moved across the country. A-and I-I'm never gonna get to see him aga-ain."

"Oh Rosey," they patted my back and tried as hard as they could to comfort me. "You'll get to see him again, I'm sure of it." Lexi's words only made me want to cry more, but I couldn't I had cried myself dry and I have to get to class.

"Thank you guys." I sniffled and wiped my eyes dry. That was another thing that hurt, he wouldn't be there to wipe away my tears anymore. They both gave me the same half hearted smile. I swear sometimes I think they were the same person. I nodded to them and walked off to english.

I sat as far in the back as I could so that I wouldn't be questioned by anyone about my eyes, or anything else that may make me feel uncomfortable. I set my phone on the desktop, it wasn't uncommon for us to use our phones in class as a dictionary, most of the time however I just played on it. My parents had got me a new phone and a new number, granted it was a better version.

The teacher stood in the front of the room talking about our upcoming test and talking about the book we were supposed to have read over the past few weeks, but I couldn't hear her. My mind was off. Off in some far off world where everything was working out perfectly. Where I still had Jasper and everyone was happy. I knew very well such a world could never exist but it was nice to think that one could. Maybe someday. In my mind I could see Jasper asleep in my bed, wrapped up tight in my arms. I only wish I could have held him tighter so that he couldn't have gotten away from me so easily.

"Are you alright," a devilishly soft voice said beside me. I turned to see Luke, a general look of concern on his face.

"Yeah," I looked back out the window without so much as another word to him.

"Rosey come on, I know when something's up," I looked back at him briefly.

"Go worry about your girlfriend instead of me," I looked over his shoulder at the girl shooting daggers in his back.

"Ex," he corrected. "She's looking at me isn't she?" I nodded curling my lips inward and looking back to the board. I was in no mood to speak to him. "Come on! Honestly what did I do to you, well I know what I did but I fixed it didn't I?"