I Can't Help but Want You

Chapter 12

The ground outside was covered in snow. The sky was black and the ground white. I ran through the cold that was biting my body. My feet went numb from the snow. I sat on the edge of the frozen fountain. The same place Jasper had told me everything about his mother. The same place he told me he didn't like me. Now however I knew why. I wiped my eyes dry and cleared my head from what just happened. I took deep breaths trying to calm myself.

"Princess Rose?"

I turned back to see who was talking although I knew exactly who it was. "Jasper my trusty knight." I smiled up at him. He sat next to me and wrapped me in his coat. He pulled me in closer and we shared his coat. My body was slowly warming up.

"So I don't look terrible huh?" He chuckled. He bumped my shoulder with his.

"No you look amazing." I sniffed. There was silence as we looked out into the dead garden and the black of the night. "Lexi and Linda know about us," I finally spoke up.

"I know, I bumped into the on my way out here." I looked up at him, he leaned down and kissed me. In that one kiss I felt like my body was on fire. Like in my head there were fireworks and explosions going off in every direction. I kissed him again leaning in more bringing his face closer to mine. "Stop," he said not pulling away.

"Why?"

"Because if we don't stop now I won't be able to stop myself later."

I looked him in the eye to see he was being sincere. My heart was racing, the longer I looked at him the faster it would beat. I wanted him, just as I had wanted him for a very long time. "Then don't."

"What?"

I bit my lip, "Jasper... Don't stop."

"A-Are you sure? I-I mean if you want. I uh-could totally comply but um..." He stuttered and stumbled over his words.

"I'm sure, I want you." I looked at him with all seriousness.

"It would be my pleasure, and yours." He smile from ear to ear. I grabbed his tie and pulled him down to kiss me. He places his hand on the back of my neck pulling me in more. I felt his tongue flick at the front of my teeth. I opened my mouth more letting him in. Our tongues tangled together, my body was heating up in the cold of the winter. He reached up and pulled the ribbon out of my hair. My long brunette locks fell past my elbows. I moved my hands up his chest to caress the sides of his face. His cheeks were hot to the touch. He pulled away out of breath, "Let's take this inside." He took a hold of my hand, our fingers intertwined. We snuck back into the house, there was a bedroom on the far side of the mansion where no one ever went.

He closed the door behind us and locked it. My heart was pounding, it was near the point of exploding. He walked over to the bedside and opened one of the drawers pulling out a condom. "Ready?" He said in a deep husky voice. He looked different some how. It was a good different, sexy. I nodded, and for that moment everything was in slow motion. Like the world stopped. He stepped towards me and pushed me against the wall. He brushed my long bangs from my eyes. "Are you nervous?"

"I've never been so nervous about anything my whole life. I mean what if I mess something up or or-" He kissed me making me shut up from my rambling.

"Just do whatever feels right to you." He smiled, his smile always seemed so calming. It was one of his best qualities, something he would only ever show to me. His hands explored my body as he devoured me. He kissed me hard, pinning my hands to the wall behind me. I didn't even try fighting him. He grabbed my chest and squeezed.

"Ahh," I moaned. I pushed on to kiss him while he touched me. He let my hands fall around his neck. I gripped the hair on the back of his head. He placed his hand on the wall holding us up from falling. I loosened his tie and threw it across the room. He pushed his pelvis against me, grinding his hips on mine, giving me a good feel of him. I grabbed his shirt and started to unbutton it one by one. With each button I kissed his chest. He took his shirt off and threw it aside. I ran my fingers over the ridges of his muscular body, And across the details of his tattoo. He pulled my chin up, I caught a glimpse of his eyes, a dark clouded lust. He pulled the ruffles of my dress up around my stomach. I looked down at him unbuttoning his pants that looked like they would rip out the seams with the large bulge in the front. He reached for my underwear and ran his hand down the front to the bottom between my legs. "Mmm-ah-ha," I moaned as he continued to move his fingers around my core. Finally he yanked them down to my ankles. He lifted me up and wrapped my legs around his waist. My bear skin on his stomach.