You and Me- Lisa Cimorelli (Fanfic)

Part 22

Chase's POV

I'm going to be fine. I'm going to be fine. If I keep thinking that then eventually I'll feel it. I can't believe that just happened. I don't understand why she would even drag me along for this past 6 months if she didn't care. Why did she waste her time and mine?
I walked into my house. I started running my hands through my hair. I have to go to work in an hour. I know I have to pull myself together. I just can't stop wondering what I did. I thought we both felt the same way about each other.
What's wrong with me? I'm never the one who leaves. I'm always the one who is left behind. So it has to be something about me. It's obviously not just Lisa. She's not the first to leave my life. First my parents, then I went from foster home to foster home, my ex cheated on me... It's me not them. I just hope that she's the last to leave. I can't take the feeling anymore. It's killing me. It's just like being rejected over and over again.
I could feel my heart racing as I started to pace back and forth. I could feel my eyes starting to burn with tears. I'm fighting them back cause I don't want to give in. I can't let this effect me.
Maybe the bad guy is who I have to be. Because when I was the bad guy I didn't feel hurt. I was just existing, not feeling. I just need to put my walls back up. Obviously the person I am now isn't working.
I grabbed my bag for work and headed out the door since it takes me a while to get there. Maybe working will get my mind off of this. I can't keep thinking about her, I'll drown in my own thoughts.

Lisa's POV

It's been about 30 minutes since Chase left. Christina opened my bedroom door. I didn't even know that she got home. I've been crying since The moment Chase walked out of the door. As soon as Christina saw me she came in and gave me a tight hug.

Christina- "Lise? What's wrong?" She asked concerned.
Lisa- "Chase and I broke up."
Christina- "What? I will hurt him. What did he do?" I hadn't told her what was going on these past few weeks. I hadn't told anyone actually. I just thought keeping it to myself would be better. I didn't think my sisters would understand.
Lisa- "He didn't do anything. I broke up with him." I said with tears coming down my face.
Christina- "Why? Did you guys get in a fight or something?"
Lisa- "Well he was mad after we broke up but we didn't fight before that."
Christina- "So then what happened?"
Lisa- "I ran. After I told myself I wouldn't run, I ran because I thought he would hurt me." I sat there crying while Christina held me.
Christina- "Did you want to be with him?"
Lisa- "Of course I did. He's the only one I want to be with. But I didn't want him fighting for me, so I told him I never loved him."
Christina- "You did?"
Lisa- "He has no one and I still told him that." My voice started trembling.
Christina- "Shh it's okay."
Lisa- "I let him believe that I never cared."
Christina- "You can still change this Lise. You can tell him. He might be more understanding then you think."
Lisa- "I can't. He was so mad. He doesn't want anything to do with me I know it. I can't just take it back now."
Christina- "Maybe you should sleep it off. Once you get some rest you can think about what you want to do."
Lisa- "I don't need to think.. It's over. Sleep isn't going to change what happened."
Christina- "Do you want some space?"
Lisa- "Yeah I think I'm just going to go to relax."
Christina- "Alright. If you need anything come get me. Love you."
Lisa- "Okay. Love you."

Once she left the room I reached for my headphones. I put them in and started listening to music as I laid there trying to calm down. Eventually I was exhausted from crying and I was able get to sleep.

Christina's POV

She regrets it. It's so easy to see that she regrets it. But I can also see that she's scared and she thought that this is what would be best. Even though it might not make sense to other people I know how Lisa works. And I know that if she doesn't want to get hurt she will leave. Sometime things aren't meant to be. Maybe her and Chase were never supposed to be together.
All I can do is hope that Lisa is okay and that she finds happiness. But over these past 6 months our family has gotten to know Chase really well and I would consider him a friend. And even though we won't see him around anymore with Lisa, I hope he's okay and that he will find happiness one day too.
Lisa and Chase both deserve happiness, and if that's together than that's great. But if they will be happier apart than that's okay too.