You and Me- Lisa Cimorelli (Fanfic)

Part 38

Lisa's POV

Chase just pulled into my driveway. No one is at my house right now, but that doesn't make this any easier. Honestly, when I got back with him I never thought I'd say goodbye again.
I love him so much and I don't want him to think that this is ending because I lost those feelings for him. I want him. But it's to hard for both of us to be with each other. We just cause chaos in each other's lives.
I let him in after he knocked. He walked into my house and sat on the couch right next to me. He looked at me with knowing eyes. I sat there quiet, with tears wheeling in my eyes. He grabbed my hand, intertwining our fingers. I placed my other free hand on top of the one that was holding mine. I rubbed my thumb against his hand and put my head down as a tear fell. He spoke softly.

Chase- "I know."

I let my head rest against his shoulder as I squeezed his hand tighter. He knew that I was going to end things. I could tell as soon as I saw him. But I knew that he was trying to save me from saying the words so he said them himself. His voice remained quiet as he continued.

Chase- "It's painful to say goodbye to someone that you don't want to let go of... But it would be more painful for me to ask you to stay, when I know that you want to go."
Lisa- "I love you so much. I don't want too... But I need too."

Chase looked down at our hands. He was letting me go. He wasn't fighting. But how could I expect him too. He's done nothing but fight for this relationship the whole time. That's why I have to let go too. He needs someone who will fight for him as hard as he would in return.

Chase- "I love you too. And that's why I know that you need to be with someone else."

He stood up and slowly unraveled his fingers from mine. The tips of his fingers grazed against mine. I stood up right after and pushed my hair back with my hand.
He looked at me and my eyes were still filled with tears because I knew that once he left, this was our final goodbye. He pulled me into a tight hug. I could feel his strong arms around me and how safe he made me feel as I buried my face in his chest. He slowly loosened the hug and put his hands on my cheeks to tilt my head up.
He pressed his lips against mine. His lips were soft and he had a gentle touch. He pulled away and we locked eyes. His hands were still gently against my cheeks.

Chase- "Sorry... I just needed to kiss you one last time."

He started to walk towards the door when he turned around as if he forgot something. He reached into his back pocket and pulled out a folded piece of paper.

Chase- "I almost forgot, I brought you this." He said handing me the folded piece of paper.
Lisa- "What is it?"
Chase- "It's a list."

I looked down at the still folded paper confused.

Lisa- "A list?"
Chase- "Yeah. When I first took you to the batting cages I said that I knew of people who had anxiety that didn't know how to explain it. Well I was talking about me, but I got over it. That's the list I made of things I could do to get over it when the anxiety got to be to much to handle. I just want you to know what can help you if you feel like no one is around."

I smiled down at the paper. I continued to wipe away tears that have been falling the whole time he has been here.
He walked towards the door and just began to open it when I said one last thing.

Lisa- "Thank you... For being the first person to show me real love."
Chase smiled weakly at me. This hurt us both. But I know that he will heal from this. I know he will find an incredible person to spend the rest of his life with. He then walked out of my door without another word. I stood in my living room with the paper he gave me, holding it tightly. It was the last piece of him that he left behind.

I let him go because I love him. Because he deserves better.

Chase's POV

I didn't fight for her because I know that she will receive a love that is better than I can ever give her.

Lisa's POV

I let him go because I know that he will be better off without me. He will be happier.

Chase's POV

I didn't fight for her because she will be happier without me.

All I ever wanted since the day I met her, was for her to be happy.