EXO's Manager (EXO Xiumin fanfic) (COMPLETED)

15 // "I need you"

I walked back to the dorms, and in the hallway I literally bumped into Lay. "Lay...I'm sorry."

"No, I'm sorry, I wasn't looking where I was going."

"No, Lay..." I exhaled. "Kim J won't let your song be on the album."

Lay sighed, and looked away. "Okay," he said, practically whispering before he walked away from me.

I failed them.

I didn't know how it could have been different. I don't know how I would have been able to change Kim J's mind.

I walked into my room, and saw the note laying on my desk. I walked over and opened it, actually going to read it this time.

Dear Amy,

I haven't done this before...writing a letter to a girl. Hopefully it goes well, but it would go better than me trying to explain this to you in person.

Amelia, I understand why you wouldn't trust me. I did a lot of horrible things to you. But I didn't trust you either...and I'm not sure I still do.

You say you want to be a good manager, and to help us. It's harder than you think. After we release the song, the promotional tour begins, and then the comeback shows...and something bad is going to happen. It always does. You're doing so well right now. You really care about us, and you always will, I believe. But some things will be out of control. I will forgive you for those things, because I understand and know your heart is in a good place.

Amelia, I thought I was in love with you from the first day I ran into you. When I found out you were our manager, I didn't want to love you. I still don't want to love you because I'm so afraid you will hurt me.

Kai doesn't know this. Kai just knows that I hate you, which I don't. He told me that I was your bias so I could manipulate you as part of his plan. You've grown on Kai lately. He doesn't like you, but he doesn't hate you, and is done with trying to get you fired. Kai had nothing to do with me getting you to sing. That was all me.

And you were perfect. And I wish I could prove to you that I'm in love with you in some other way than kissing you because I know that's pushing you away, and I understand. I just wish you knew. That you would believe me.

Respectfully,
Xiumin~

I walked out of my dorm and went to his dorm, knocking on the door. Chen opened the door. "Amelia," he said. "Lay told me about the song."

"Where's Minseok?" I asked, cringing. "Xiumin." I was so obvious that I liked him. 

"I think the dance room putting in extra practice. Why?"

"Thank you," I said, walking quickly there.

I found the practice room and found Xiumin in there. "Xiumin," I called, standing in the doorway.

Xiumin stopped, and turned to look at me. "Amy."

I shook my head. "Why do you call me that?"

He smiled. "Why do you call me Minseok?"

"Because..." I was speechless.

He laughed quietly. "For the same reasons you call me Minseok."

I ran my hand through my hair, and then looked at him. "I...read your letter."

"Oh." Xiumin nodded.

I brushed my hair back with my hand. "I...had no idea.."

Xiumin looked at me. "I wouldn't ever try to hurt you again."

"I think I trust you," I said, scared to even speak those words. My heart was racing. Would Kai come out at any moment and laugh at me? But looking at Xiumin...I could trust him.

"I just feel like I need you," Xiumin said.

"Minseok...Kim J told me that your reputation will go down if there's anything between us. We would be the biggest scandal of the year."

"You think I haven't thought of that?" Xiumin asked. "Because I have."

"I couldn't do that to you."

"You already did. You helped cut my lines."

"And I'm so sorry," I told him.

Xiumin shook his head. "I deserved it."

It was quiet, and we both just stood there. "Minseok.. We can't have anything going on between us. You know that."

Xiumin's eyes narrowed as he glared at me. "I'd sacrifice more for you if we did, and I'm okay with it."

I was getting irritated. I know I was only a manager - compared to him being a member in a famous Korean boy band. I hated when he compared us. "Why would you be okay with throwing away your career for me?"

"Because I don't care anymore. I'm like everyone else in this band - we all want out."

"Really?" I asked.

"Yeah." Xiumin sighed. "It's too much. And Tao is saying his waist hurts again...Amy, we're all falling apart. But when everything does fall apart, I want you to still be there." Xiumin stepped closer to me and held my hands in his.

"I..don't know what to say," I said.

"It's okay." Xiumin's hand went to my face and he leaned in to kiss me, but then the door flew open.

Xiumin and I pushed each other away and Kai walked in. "There you are," he said to me. "Lay told me about the song."

"What?" Xiumin asked. "Our song? What about it?"

"Oh, Amelia didn't tell you? The song won't be on the album," Kai said. "By the way, Lay doesn't like you. He thinks you're weak."

"I at least tried," I said. I looked at Xiumin, and his face fell.

"The fans need to hear that song," Xiumin said, shaking his head. "I really had faith in you, Amy." He bumped my shoulder with his as he walked out of the practice room.

I had to do something. And what I was going to do could potentially mess up everything.