I'll Make This Feel Like Home (Kellic)

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I never thought a shower could feel so good. It had been about two weeks since I had one, and it was starting to get real uncomfortable, and I'm sure I wasn't smelling too pleasant either. But this shower, It felt like it was washing away a little more than the smell of mud and stale cigarette. And even though it was lukewarm, and the water pressure was barely there, It didn't stop me from wanting to stay there all night. But then I remembered what Vic said about the water shutting off within 8 minutes, so I quickly grabbed the soap bar Vic had gave me, and lathered my body and my hair-that I knew needed a trim. And just as I was rinsing my hair, the water stopped, and I didn't even have a chance to rinse off my body.

I pushed my wet hair out of my face and sighed deeply. That was way too fast. Then I grabbed the towel I was given, and dried myself off before taking some clothes out of my backpack that I had brought in with me, and changed in the shower stall.

When I exited the stall, I saw a few people in here now, only they were naked. They were just walking around, chatting either to take a shower, or had just gotten out. I blushed and looked away, immediately feeling uncomfortable. How could people feel so comfortable to just walk around in the nude with other men? But I remember Vic telling me what exactly this place was, and that everyone here was gay, so maybe they didn't mind seeing other males like this around them.

I quickly grabbed my things and left, but only to stop outside the room because I had no idea what I was supposed to do now. Should I just leave? Was I supposed to wait for Vic?

After a few short moments of thinking about what I should do, I decided I would just leave. I mean, I already had food and a shower. Besides, I was really tired now, and I knew it would be best to get to a safe place to rest for the night.

I took my sweater out of my bag and put it on, making sure to put the hoodie up to cover my damp hair, before walking down the hallways in search for the front door again. When I got to the dining area, I guess you could call it, I saw that there weren't many people anymore. There were still a few, but none of them were eating anymore. Now they were just hanging out and even some of them were putting out sleeping bags. Do they sleep here, too?

I pried my eyes away from them all and walked over to the door, but of course, before I could open the it, I heard my name being called from behind me. I sighed deeply, already knowing who it was. I turned around and saw Vic walking my direction. I could run. I could run right now and I'm sure I could get away from him and here. But that would be stupid.

"Kellin, where are you going?" He asked, now in front of me.

I opened my mouth but closed it again because I really didn't have an answer, or a definite place that I was going, and Vic knew that. I settled for just shrugging, sheepishly.

"You know, you don't have to leave. I don't think there are any empty beds left, but I can get you a blanket and you can lounge out here with these kids tonight." There were a few things that made me cringe about what Vic just said.

The first was how sweetly he spoke to me. I already knew he was such a people person, which was kind of annoying. The second thing was that he called the people in here kids, but they all seemed about my age. So that just made me wonder how old he really was. And I didn't like that he called them kids, because it was like an indirect to me, which only made me feel so small. The word just made me feel so insignificant and less worthy than the person calling me it. But maybe I was just sensitive...

"Uh, no thanks." I declined. Although it did sound appealing to be out of the cold for the night, the downfall was that I only knew Vic here, and I knew for a fact that he wouldn't stay here during the night, which only means that I would be alone. And there's a difference between being alone while being alone, and being alone with people.