I'll Make This Feel Like Home (Kellic)

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Sorry this chapter took so long! I've had a lot going on, but hopefully this chapter will make up for it...or it will just anger and confuse you hehehe

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I felt like I had been hit by a truck. I was sure that a full nights sleep would help, but all my dreams centered around my parents. They were rotten, and ruined any idea of rest for me. I had gone to bed so early last night, and I still felt dead exhausted the next day. I just wanted to stay in bed today.

"Come on, Kellin. Get ready." Vic voiced, causing me to groan.

"No thank you." I said politely, and yet it was soaked in attitude. Didn't he know I had plans today? I mean, sure my plans were to just lounge around, but I was still really looking forward to them.

"Where are you going?" I asked Vic. He was on the other side of the room, putting his shoes on. He was fully dressed already. Vic never actually changes in front of me, he always went into the restroom, and I did the same. Vic was just very private, and had his boundaries with our relationship. Of course I would love to see what Vic was packing, but I knew that I had to respect him and his privacy.

"To the Center, Dani says people have been asking why I haven't been around, and when there will be bible study again." He explained.

I sort of felt guilty. I felt like I was the reason why Vic hadn't been to the Youth Center, or why he hasn't really left his house at all. I just wasn't worth that kind of sacrifice-- but wait...Dani??

"Oh, you still talk to her?" I asked, recalling them kind of being a thing, and me kind of wanting to hurt her.

"Yeah, we're still friends." He smiled to himself, if only he knew that killed me. I knew it wasn't good for me to be jealous, but I couldn't help it!

Vic and I arrived at the Youth Center sometime after breakfast would be served. The second we stepped inside, my stomach churned. I didn't know how I felt about this place anymore. Sure it hadn't been that long since I'd been here, but It wasn't exactly a place you'd like to belong to. It was just a reminder, that this place was only temporary, and I didn't have a home, and being at Vic's-- that wasn't my home either. I didn't have a home, I didn't know where I belonged.

"Okay, I'll be back in an hour." Vic told me. He said that I didn't have to attend his Bible study, which I was so thankful for. It just wasn't my cup of tea. He kissed me softly on the cheek before floating away to where he needed to be. There was no one really around, so I doubt anyone saw us. I wasn't quite sure if we were supposed to be keeping our relationship a secret or not.

For a while I sat at a random table in the dining area, not knowing what to do with myself. I thought about going to my (old) room, but I decided against it. I knew my guitar was still in there, but maybe I'll just ask Vic to get it for me later.

Eventually I became restless, and I still had some time until Vic would be done. I was just bored, and really didn't want to be here anymore. I wanted to be back with Vic in his room. But then I heard the door open, and in came Connor and Max like clockwork. They didn't even hesitate before coming up to me.

"Welcome back, Kellin." Connor spoke, like we were friends, like he had the right. I simply nodded and looked ahead.

"So listen, we've got some new stuff and--"

"No thanks." He began but I cut him off. I couldn't do this right. I wasn't strong enough to confidently deny their offer. I was weak. The only reason I wasn't doing drugs anymore was because of Vic, but he wasn't here and fuck, why can't these guys just leave!?