I'll Make This Feel Like Home (Kellic)

7

Later that night I found myself in restroom, brushing my teeth after a shower. I was still on edge about this place, and the people in it. I was nowhere near comfortable, but tonight the place was almost empty, and that gave me a little sense of ease.

Vic had left a little earlier today so he could go on his date. I genuinely hope it goes well so he doesn't worry so much about it. I know that Vic is a nice guy, and I think he deserves a girlfriend. And honestly, the guy needs to get laid. He just seems like he hasn't gotten it in-in a while.

As I thought these random things, the door to the restroom opened and behind it was Tay. I didn't mind Tay, but I also didn't really know her. But I knew she was mad at me for some reason, and for that I knew I didn't want to be here.

I saw her glance at me through the mirror, but quickly turned away and headed to one of the toilet stalls. I grabbed my things from off the sink and went to leave when I heard Tay call out for me to wait. I stopped in my tracks and turned back to her with a questioning look. She was standing by the stall, looking down at the tiles on the floor like she was trying to figure out what exactly to say.

"Where were you those days you were gone?" She finally said, but still not looking up at me.

"Nowhere really." I shrugged. I didn't really know what to say, and why did she care anyways.

"Why did you lie?" She asked and I was completely taken back. When did I lie?

"What-"

"You told Jenna you were coming back that day, but you didn't." She looked up quickly and spoke fast before I had the chance to finish my sentence.

"I'm sorry?" I said, but wasn't sure. Why should I be sorry? So what, I lied about coming back. I'm here now. It really isn't a big deal.

"No, you don't understand. I hate people who lie, I can't trust them." She admitted, looking at me like I could honestly hurt her at any moment. It was like we had never hung out before, and I was completely unpredictable. I guess she meant it when she said she couldn't trust people who lie; ie me.

"What was I supposed to say? I didn't know if I would even come back." I admitted.

"Then just say that. Don't ever lie to me or Jenna- or really anyone." She said with a stern voice. I never thought of Tay as intimidating, she was this very cute girl with a sweet voice and only short things to say, but now she sounded so sure of what she was saying. She was serious about this, I just didn't understand why.
I looked at Tay who was now looking back to the ground and had her arms crossed.

Your mannerisms are yours for a reason. You do and act certain ways because of things you have experienced, or what you've been surrounded with. There is a reason why Tay is so anal about people who lie- I don't know what the reason is exactly, but I know it wasn't good. I know there are things that trigger me, and I know that it is hard for me to be around people who inflict these triggering things, so I know how Tay feels about me right now, and I don't want to be one of those people for her.

"I'm sorry, Tay. But you have to understand that it is not easy for me to be in a place like this. But I shouldn't have lied and-" I was going to say more, like about knowing how hard it will be to earn her trust again, but I couldn't when she left her previous spot and came up to me before surprising me by wrapping her arms around me and embracing me in a hug.

I couldn't speak as she did this. I even couldn't think. This was something I wasn't used to anymore. I wasn't used to something as simple as a hug from an acquaintance. She held on to me, tight and I felt nothing but uncomfortable. It wasn't that I hated her, I just hated the interaction, but I didn't want to be rude so I awkwardly snaked a single arm around her shoulder and kind of just held it there. I felt like I had lost some of my memory and was having to relearn how to do simple, everyday things. How could I be so awkward?