I'll Make This Feel Like Home (Kellic)

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{kellin's pov}

The second Jude, my counselor said I would be dismissed today, my heart blasted off. I was so ready to get out of here. Although my time here really wasn't too bad, I still wanted to leave and see Vic. A lot had changed in a month, I had changed. When I first came in here, I didn't want to talk. I didn't think it was anyone's business what I did or why I did it, also, I was a little hurt that Vic brought me here. I felt like I was too much of a burden on him, and that was why he dropped me off. But now that I've been here, I realized that he did it because he genuinely cares about me, or he did, I'm not sure how he is feeling right now. 30 days is a long time. I had changed so much, and Vic could have too. Maybe he's decided that he doesn't like me anymore, or he has found someone else that he likes much better.

I anxiously packed up my bag while waiting to be dismissed. I didn't have much in it. It was really just random clothing, and my journals that they encouraged I keep and write in everyday. For the first week, I wore the clothes I had collected from Vic. They all smelled like him, so rich and intoxicating, but then I switched to my own limited clothes after a while.

During my stay here, I realized that I needed to stop feeling so bad about myself all the time. I had to stop dwelling on what I didn't have. I needed to stop blaming my parents for everything (which was the hardest part) and I just had to make do with what I had. I even made a mental note to go down to Mr.Drews music shop and sort things out with him, and maybe even get a job there. He had offered one before, but I declined because I didn't have clothes nor a guarantee that I could get there everyday on time.

There was a soft knock on my door, I turned to see Jude there. "You ready?" She asked. I exhaled deeply before nodding my head, grabbing my bag and following her out. She lead me the way I came in a month ago. She slid her pass card and opened the doors for us. Instantly it was a lot brighter as we entered the waiting room. As I followed Jude to the front desk, I vaguely made out one person in there. I let my eyes fall on them, before they light up wildly when I figured out it was Vic. He was sitting in one of the chairs, but once our eyes met, he was on his feet.

He jogged over to me quickly, coming up to me and embracing me in the warmest hug I had ever received. We didn't say anything at first, we just held each other. It was so nice.

"I missed you," he eventually spoke. I felt like my heart had melted and fell into my stomach as he said that. How could he do that to me with such ease? He made me so weak in the best of ways.

Vic filled out paper work for me, before taking me to his car, and then eventually back to his house. I could feel that there was so much change in the air between us. There were obviously things that needed to be discussed, and I felt like I had a lot to apologize for. But for now I stayed silent.

We got to his room where I dropped my bag down to the floor with a sigh and plopped onto his bed. Vic followed my actions, sitting on his bed, close beside me. So many thoughs raced in my head, and yet I said none of them. I was more surprised that Vic was so quiet. He seemed to anyways have something to say.

"Thank you," I settled. I think that was a good place to start.

"Thank you?" he questioned.

"Yes, thank you for taking me there. Thank you for paying for it, thank you for bringing me here now. Just... thank you for everything." He was such a wholehearted person. I don't think an infinite amount of 'thanks you's' would suffice the gratitude I have for him.

"Oh...you're welcome, but I don't really want to talk about that right now." He said. I tilted my head in question as for what he meant.

"I'm just happy you're here." He explained. "I actually missed you a lot. So lets not talk about the heavy stuff right now. I just want to like, spend time with you. Is that okay?"