Lost In Paradise(EDITING)

20. Angels & Airwaves

Paradise

I woke up with a horrible pain within my neck. I lift my head up only for the pain to get worst.

"Fuck" I mumbled to myself as I try to figure out where I was. The room was lit by one lamp in the corner so I couldn't see much.

I tried to move and noticed that my hands and feet were tied to the chair. I was in nothing but my panties and bra. To make matters worst, I felt like I haven't eaten in days and could pass out again at any moment.

Tears started to fall from my eyes. I don't understand why I have to go through so much pain. Physical and emotional. This is too much for one person to go through.

I felt like giving up. There's no way I'm going to get out of here alive. Why am I being punished for something my parents did?

I feel like death is the only solution to my problems. No matter how much I think I've progress, something or someone always sets me back. Its not worth it anymore.

I remember those words my mother and grandmother told me all those years ago about how going through struggle is worth it and how I need to be strong enough to break through the chains that life throws at me but, I can't.

I have no more fight in me. I am defeated.

I could hear music playing in the background but, I couldn't make out the words through my crying.

I tried breaking out of the ropes but, ended up hurting myself more in the process. I was becoming irritated and overwhelmed.

"Just kill me now! I have no reason to live anymore!" I screamed as I shook back and forth in the chair. More tears rushed down my face as I screamed out in frustration.

I hung my head low trying my best to calm myself down. It wasn't working. The pain in my neck came back adding more to my irritation.

The music was still playing in the background as the words started to become more clear.

If you contemplating suicide, this is for you. See this is for the moments you're only with emotions

When you're cold and alone heart is openly broken

Be strong you are not alone. I just want you to know that you are not alone.

There's Angels in the airwaves tonight. And I've been running all of my life.

I need you to save I need you to save

Angels in the airwaves tonight.

Music has always been my motivation. Whenever I hear a song like this, it encourage me to keep fighting. This is God's way of telling me not to give up. Its not my time yet.

I felt a wave of relief wash over me. The pain in my neck was no longer there. Something told me to try and break out the ropes. I did just that and the came right off.

I looked down at my swollen hands and smiled to myself. God is always there when you need Him. I am truly thankful. I made a promise to myself and Him that I would never have suicidal thoughts ever again. I am much stronger than that.

I untied the ropes around my ankles and I was finally free. The minute I got up, I heard someone coming in the room.

I ran behind into what I think to be a nearby closet. I ducked down and felt around on the floor, looking for something to protect myself with.

I found a bat, I will be putting this to good use.

"Man what fuck?! I tied that little bitch up real good! Where the fuck she go?!" A man with a thick Cuban accent said. I became nervous again because I was sure he would look in the closet. I just have to be prepared to start swinging the minute he opens up the door.

I could hear his footsteps and stuff being thrown and smashed. After a moment, everything was quiet.

"You really think you can outsmart me huh you little bitch?! I got something for yo ass." I can hear him chuckling before a gun was being cocked back.

I held the bat in place as he got closer to the closet.

He started to open the door.

"Say hello to your daddy bitch!" Before he could even open the door all the way, I started swinging.

He stumbled back, dropping the gun in the process while screaming out in pain. I just continued to swing. Hitting him in every area possible.

I could hear his bones crack as he laid on the floor crying.

I dropped the bat, not wanting to kill him. I took in deep breaths, calming my nerves. It actually felt good to inflict pain on someone else but, I knew that was not a good way to release my anger. This is the first and last time I did something like this....hopefully.

I picked up the gun and made my way out the room. I crept slowly through what looked like a living room. No noise was made in the house. I assumed and hoped nobody was here.

I found a pair a car keys sitting on a glass table. I peeked out the window and saw a car sitting in the driveway. This house looked to be in the middle of nowhere. I wasn't sure how I was going to find my way to my family but, I damn sure wasn't gon stick around here.

I grabbed the keys and tried to look for something to put on. I rambled through closets until I found a t shirt and I pair a shorts. I knew it was kind of chilly outside but, this is better that being in my panties and bra.

I slipped the clothes on a d quickly made my way out the house. I jumped in the car. I had no time to waste. I sent a quick prayer to Him, thanking Him for getting me out that house and to guide me to my family. I started the car and hauled ass away from the horror house.

Sorry this chapter is so short, I haven't updated in a while and wanted to give y'all a decent chapter. Next one will be longer and better . :)