Shut The F*ck Up, No One Cares

This Is Actually Kind Of Serious

Hey guys :)

So this chapter thing is actually gonna be somewhat serious, not completely though, this is me we're talking about XD

Miranda Sings' Voice: I'M NOT EVEN KIDEEN ABOUT EET ಠ_ಠ

No but, I need to talk to you guys.

It's about what told you last chapter.

Some of you might remember I posted a chapter in this book called: '*cries* I Wanna Be Special Too! *cries more*'

❕I'd just like say that if you read that and were offended in any way, shape, or form I am so sorry. That was not my intention. At the time I wrote it I was extremely confused with myself and what was going on in my mind.❕

In that chapter I said that I wanted to like girls and that I'd be fine with the whole 'coming out' thing, to be honest though, I think in my mind I was thinking more of 'what would it be like if I did? ' 'what would my grandparents say/do if I told them I did? ' and it kind of scared me.

I'm not saying that it's bad for a girl to like a girl, I'm not saying that at all! I'm just saying I think I was scared, in a way.

I was worried that if I were to like girls (maybe not even then, but possibly in the future, I am only 14), there would be a time when I'd have to tell my family and friends. It wasn't my friends I was worried about telling though, I was worried about telling my grandparents (who I live with). I was scared to tell them because they're Catholic and "it's a sin" "it's an abomination" and so much more to them.

Which makes me so mad btw! 😠

I was worried that if I told them they'd want nothing to do with me, or that they'd ignore it like I'd never said anything and just move on and not acknowledge it. But I don't like feeling like that, like I'm too scared to do what I want, so I tried to seem like I'd be totally fine if that were to happen. Like I'd be too determined on getting them to accept it that I wouldn't even be bothered by what they, or anyone for that matter, would say.

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Let me back track a little.

In 6th or 7th grade I joined chorus and became friends with this girl, let's call her... Kit (I like that name 'cause it reminds me of kit-kats + AHS XD), anyway, we became friends and blah blah blah. Skip ahead to the beginning of this year (8th grade), we're still friends and we hang out at lunch all the time.

This year though I started thinking of her differently, and more often. I'd think things like: "she's really pretty" "I love that she's a little shorter than me and she only let's me joke about it " "I love that she's so petite yet tough around everyone"

And I was confused because I still liked boys, I liked three actually, but now it was starting to seem like I liked her.

A little further into this year now I realized I liked another girl... kind of, I mean she's transgender, but that's a whole other thing.

And then I (kind of) met another girl, not that long ago, but not that recently either, but I won't talk about her much. However, I will say that I really like her... a lot.

And now where back to today:

•I still like my friend 'Kit'
•I like two of the three guys I did before (one more-so than the other CX)
•I still really like this girl I (kind of) met

And I've come to the fact that yes, I am bisexual.

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Now back what this whole thing was about.

I need advice from you guys on coming out. (that rhymed XD)

I'm not sure how to tell my grandparents. My friends aren't as big of a problem because I really only need to tell my best friend and I know she'll be ok with it because her sister is bisexual and she's totally fine with it, I just don't want her to make a big deal about it which, knowing her, she will.

Advice for telling her would still be greatly appreciated though :3

But my main issue is my grandparents. I have no idea what to say, no idea what to do, I just don't know! So if you guys have any advice for me at all, comment here or private message me, it'd help me out a lot.

Thanks for listening to me ramble, guys. I love you, bi ❤(←Ya get it? I know, I'm so funny XD)