Shut The F*ck Up, No One Cares

Apology (+ So... I Might Be Questioning?)

{6/5/16}

+Part 1+

Ok so a while ago I wrote the chapter '*cries* I Wanna Be Special Too! *cries more*' and it annoys me to no end and I feel like it is so offensive, and inconsiderate, and just... I want to punch myself in the face for writing it!

You have no idea! Honestly I wish more peole actually read this so a lot of people could send me hate about it 'cause honestly that's what it and I deserve for it. But I don't know if I should unpunish/delete it because I think it shows how much I've grown since then (...hopefully *crosses fingers*).

So then, to try and fix it/come out, I wrote the chapter 'This Is Actually Kind Of Serious' and I feel like I didn't explain what I wanted to well at all. And again, I want to punch myself in the face for writing it.

Like seriously why am I so horrible? And why do I not get any hate for it? Like, do I have to make fake accounts and send myself hate?

*stops* *actually thinks about it*

No, but right now I would like to make a huge, combined apology for both of those chapters:

First and foremost, I am so sorry if I offended anyone with either of these chapters. Honestly I feel like I was, and still am, so naive to all of this. I'm still learning a lot about sexualities, sexual preferences, gender... things (sorry, I don't know the proper word for it).

Tbh it wasn't that long ago that I actually learned what pansexuality and asexuality were.

*bookmarks pansexuality to talk about later*

And very recently I learned what demisexual is as well.

Anyways, my point is, I don't know as much as I think I do sometimes, and I'm sorry in advance for when I act like I do. I really don't mean to offend anyone, honest, and I hope you guys can forgive me.

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+Part 2+

So, reguarding the second part of the chapter 'This Is Actually Kind Of Serious' when I told you guys I was bisexual, I might be, I'm just not 100% sure.

Since then I've learned about many different sexualities and such, especially pansexuality. If you look up pansexual this is what comes up:

pan·sex·u·al
panˈsekSH(əw)əl/

adjective
1. not limited in sexual choice with regard to biological sex, gender, or gender identity.

noun
1. a pansexual person.

So to simplify it, someone who is pansexual can like/love/whatever else someone regardless of their sex/gender/gender identity.

Someone who is pansexual likes someone based off of their personality and things like that.

(if you're pansexual please don't kill me if I'm wrong about any of this, but please correct me/add anything I missed)

And I'm not 100% sure, but I think I might be pansexual.

I'M NOT 100% SURE THOUGH.

I do like girls, I do like boys, I do like someone who is transgender, and I 'like' this YouTuber I watch who's genderfluid.

So does that mean I'm pansexual?

I'm not asking you guys to tell me I am, but I kind of am in a way. I guess I'm just asking for advice. I mean, I guess by definition I am, but idk.

And I know that everyone's like "oh, you're still so young, you don't have to know yet" or "it doesn't matter, you don't need to label yourself", but I just don't want to be confused anymore 😳 It would just be so much better for me to know tbqfh 😆

So if you guys have any input on this I would love to hear it, it would really help me out 😌❤