The Bad Boys Secret [Cameron Dallas fanfic]

Chapter 43 - On my mind

A thing that really frustrates me is that films have such perfect moments. Everything in movie life happen to fall into place. A guy meets a girl, they fall in love, something tragic happens, and then, then they end up back together, and of course, live happily ever after. That's what annoys me. Happily ever after. Really, there is no happily ever after because there's time when you are happy and times when you are sad. There are times that are great, and times that are really blue. We can't guess when time is up, on anything, and we can't guess what's going to happen next. Time flies when you're having fun, but time flies anyway, because time is a thief, and sometimes time is the one who stole us.

You can't guess a happy ending because not everything turns out okay. I know it's sad to say, but: your parents will argue over things, and if they get over it they do but if they don't then over time you have to wait and see. Your grandma who is ill, well it's horrible to say but she's had a life. Your sister who hates the family and prefers being out with his friends, let her, because she will realise she misses you one day when it comes around, if not, then that's her loss. You can't guess the day your parents stop arguing, the date your grandma dies, nor the day your sister returns to family life. You can't guess the future just to escape today. You can't think about the past because it's behind you. You can't start a new chapter in your life if you keep re-reading the last one.

You may not move on from your first love, even as time passes, but it's a memory you get to keep, it's a memory. You won't ever forget the feelings you felt but you will eventually learn how to live without them.

There's not a day that goes by where he doesn't come into my head, but that's life and I'm gonna have to deal with it. I see him in the streets and he makes my heart shiver and makes me freeze still, but I'm head strong and I know that I have to move on. I still haven't moved on from Cameron, and he's still a memory never to forget, but every day I'm taking step by step, learning how to live without him. I've looked back at our past but I've kept it as a memory, and I'm hoping one day, I can look back and just tell my daughter, to never let yourself get played. To tell my daughter, for her only true boyfriend would happen to be her father, and if she doesn't happen to have one, then she has me as a friend to rely on.

I love him from the very very bottom of my heart, and I'll never forget the feelings he let me feel; unconditional love, and unconditional heartbreak. But as a piece of extremely fragile glass, I learn to put on the cracked slipper and put on my ball gown, with midnight as my curfew, I now learn to dance, step by step, hoping to find a new dance partner. I'm learning to dance in the rain.

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Sorry guys but it's the end of The Bad Boys Secret.
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