Never Have I Ever || h.s.

Chapter 19: Can't Live Like This

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Ch 19:

:HARRYS POV:

I can't think straight in that the moment. She is gone.

:NIALL'S POV:

I've never seen Harry like this before. He is sitting next to me shaking and bawling his eyes out. I wish there was something I could do, but no words could mend his brokenness.

The doctors are currently trying to revive Laney, but I think it is too late. We all knew this was coming. I didn't know what Harry would do after this, but he would never be the same again. The other lads were here too, but they are talking to the doctors. I am surprised I was handling this well. At least- I am doing better than I expected. I am crying, yes...but not like Harry.

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:LIAM'S POV:

Zayn, Louis, and I are sitting in a small office waiting for any sort of news. I think we all know that it probably won't be good news, but we can hope for the best.

The door knob to the office slowly turns, and Dr. James slowly came in and sits down at the desk.

"Boys. Laney is struggling. Her heart rate goes up and down, but it's slowing drastically. We are doing our best to keep her with us, but the chances don't look great. I'm sorry." Dr. James says, looking at the floor. It must be so hard for doctors to do their job sometimes...

After that, Louis, Zayn and I walk into the room where Niall and Harry are. I think we all would agree that this is the worst we've ever seen Harry. The worst part is- none of us know what to do... Nothing we say to him has helped. I am worried his depression will lead to something extreme.

:HARRYS POV:

Can I please die too? I can't live like this... Everything we have done together... Everything we shared... All of it... I am still in love with her. Laney is the strongest person I have ever known. She was abandoned by her parents, and she adapted to a whole new life, knowing she was going to die one way or another. She is also extremely smart. She knew this would happen. She didn't want me to suffer like this. She warned me...

I looked up at Liam and the others.

"H-how is sh-she?" I choked out, barely audible.

"Harry.." Liam started, "the chances aren't... great.."

I nodded before putting my head back in my hands to sob.

"Dear Lord, please let Laney live.... you are supposed to be the miracle worker. Please....please.... make a miracle happen... I can't live like this." I prayed silently to myself. I was desperate for any hope at this point.

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:LANEYS POV:

Pain. So much pain. I could barely breathe. I was gasping for each breath I took. My mind kept flashing through my life... I kept wondering if I was actually dead. I wished I was dead, or at least not feeling pain.

I really wanted Harry next to me, but at the same time I didn't want him to watch me die. To be honest, I was terrified.. to die... to leave Harry...

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"Laney, sweetie, can you hear me?" I heard a voice asking me, over and over again. I could barely open my eyes to see a nurse in pink shrugs. I moaned in pain. Could someone please relieve me of this pain?!

I slowly felt a needle prick my forearm. I had no energy to react to the prick, but slowly I felt more awake.

I could now open my eyes all the way and look around... I was in a hospital still.. So I couldn't be dead. I cautiously wiggled my fingers and lifted my arms, examining them. I sat up finally, staring at my feet. I was alive.

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I heard the door knob turn and the nurse appeared on the other side.

"You're awake. That's good... How do you feel?" The nurse asked, grazing her hand across my arm.

"Um. I think I'm ok. I'm not in any serious pain.. I just feel weak." I replied, still confused of what had happened.

"Alright, well, we will keep a close eye on you, but I think you are going to be just fine for now." I nodded slightly in reply. "Would you like to see the boys?" She whispered. A shy smile spread across my face. I nodded again warmly. She then exited.

Yes, yes, yes... I wanted to see them!

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:NIALL'S POV:

So we'd lost Harry. I was worried he was going to kill himself. But we were doing our best to try and find him as quickly as possible... not that we could change his mind very easily.

A nurse walked up to me and Liam with a warm smile.

"Laney is awake and is doing fine for now...I think she would really love to see you all." The nurse explained, and then walked down the hall again. Liam and I stared at each other with wide eyes.....

Shit. We had to find Harry.

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A.N: thanks for all of the reads and votes and friendly messages I've been getting.. I love you wattpaders!! Haha if you have a nick name I could call you awesome nerds please let me know because wattpaders is a cheesy name lol. But I personally like awesome nerds.

Xo- Della

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