Teenage Dirtbag

25

-Noel-

He looked at me, turned to me, like he was actually going to talk to me. I will admit I wanted him to, but I didn't want him to get in trouble. Teachers were on watch duty of me, the dial turned up to the max.

My dad dispised him now, but he didn't understand that it was mom's idea for him to come in until midnight. He wouldn't listen to any "excuse" I had to tell him, he would click his gun in anger at the mention of his name.

I hadn't heard from Lance, which I guess is a good thing, but I had a selfish idea in my head.

"Izabel!" I hollered over by them, shy to even walk over. She wouldn't listen, but Harry did. He wanted to come over so badly I could tell.

I swallowed the rest of my nerves built up in me, walking slowly over to the trio. "Izabel," She smiled, looking over to me, as well did the other two. "Niall.." I nodded to him, smiling warmly.

"Izabel was going to go do the medicine balls with Niall, will you be okay by yourself for a day?" I smiled, nodding my head. I really didn't want her to leave me with Harry, I was afraid a teacher was going to come over and strangle him.

"Noel please just listen t-"

"Harry I'm tired of listening. Listening to everyone, it's all I ever do. I understand that your trying to just lay off because of the way my dad acted, but your only making it worse. It was your choice to drop me like that, and I can't make you take it back." He shook his head, grabbing my arm as I tried to walk away.

"I want to take it back. I want to take it all back. But I almost got killed Noel? If I wasn't fast enough, that bullet wouldn't have been in the sky." I shivered at the thought of it being anywhere on him.

"I can't risk losing you forever because your dad wants to kill me. It's better to have me back off for a while, maybe forever. I know deep down you know that too.." I crossed my arms over my chest, looking towards the teacher. He was writing on a clipboard, while talking to his pet.

"Yeah.." I looked at his arms. They were bigger than the last time we had a conditioning day, and man could I look at them all day.

"Please just- understand where I'm coming from? If I never speak to you again, just know I did it for you, not to save my ass." I looked down at my feet, rolling on them.

"Is that what you think? That we'll never speak to eachother again?" He couldn't take it back now, I knew where he was going.

"No. I don't think Noel, I know we won't. I don't want to talk to you anymore." I blinked, uncrossing my arms.

"What?" He didn't mean it, I know he wouldn't say something like that.

"I don't want to speak to you anymore.." I saw the way his eyes glared at me, he didn't mean it.

"Stop it. Take that back right now or I'm walking away and you really won't talk to me ever again." He stood there, his hands in fists at his sides, clenching them in and out every once in a while.

"I don't take it back." My mouth opened, just about to speak. I decided against it and walked away.

How dare he? After everything we've talked about, been through? He just wants to throw it all away? Just like that..

And just like that I became broken.