Déjà Vu

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Blake's POV

dear Blake,

cowboy, you wouldn't know how much I love you. I didn't tell you about my condition because I didn't want you to worry and I thought you might leave me. I can't believe how much we've been through so much. As of now, I think that we should take a time off. We've been all over each other so much that we fight over the smallest things. Please take good care of my boys, I know that they are in good hands. I think that we're taking things too fast and we need to slow things down. We've been getting to lots of arguments lately and you know with my condition I couldn't handle the anger and the pain. Those words you said a while ago tore me apart. I know that you wouldn't do that to me but you did. I can't trust you like the way I used to trust you anymore. I'm really sorry if I'm giving up on us right now but I will always love you, your truck, your humongous arms that cuddle me at night and everything about you. I love you so much cowboy. I'm sorry if we can't be like our past selves anymore. I love you.

gx

The letter came with the handkerchief that I gave her on our first date. She's like saying that she wants to move on. Also at the same time she wants to fight for it. I'm on the verge of anxiety right now. Everyone's trying hard to stay strong for Gwen. She means a lot to every single one of us. They left the room because they said that I needed space and I thanked them for thinking about me.

" Gwen- I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I broke you. I wish I just shut my mouth up. I wish I wasn't so selfish to say those things to you. You don't have to forget everything between us. This fight is just temporary baby. You're the best thing that happened to me and I won't let that thing slip away. I promise I'll be here when you wake up baby. Don't give up on us. Don't give up just yet. I love you so damn much. " Tears fall down my face then I feel hands patting my back. " She'll be happy to see you when she wakes up. " a familiar voice said, I turned around to see Miranda. " Hey. What are you doing here? " I wipe my tears away. " I decided to check on you after I heard the accident. I'm sorry about it. " she holds my hand but I don't hold hers back. I miss Gwen's smooth hands. I miss her hands around my neck. I miss her holding my hand everywhere. I couldn't stop looking at her. Thinking if I was not a selfish idiot, she would still be here holding my hand and cuddling under my arms. She's too beautiful to be in this hospital. She's an angel. Why have I done?

The doctors arrive and they said that she's doing a little bit better after the accident but she is still in a coma. She got real hard. Her vital organs are not responding well though. I'm so scared about what will happened to her. I can't lose her just yet. I haven't make it up to her yet. She's strong. She's a fighter. She's a strong woman, I believe in her.

// 2 months later //

Miranda has been here supporting me these past two months. She's been a big help to me. I wouldn't know what I would do without her. It's taking her so long before she wakes up. I'm tired. I hate myself for saying this but I'm giving up on her now. I can't do anything if I'll just be here. I'm really losing hope right now. But, the doctors say she's been better than few months ago but there's a 75% that she can wake up within this month. I can't wait that long! I still have commitments in my career. I might regret this in the future but I really have to move on. She said already, we can't be the way we used to be. Then, what's the point of everything. I can't do this anymore.

Adam's POV

I checked on Gwen's room and I see Gavin with the boys not Blake. I ask the nurse where Blake was and they said that he left with his things with Miranda. Oh god no Blake. You're messing with me at the wrong time with the wrong reasons. He had the nerve to turn his back for the girl that cheated on him, what was he thinking? I get back on Gwen's room and Gavin greeted me. " Hey! So did you see Blake? " he tells me while holding baby Apollo, " No. I guess he moved on with the girl that broke his heart. " I say while taking a seat. He nods and continues to play with the boys. I look at Gwen and she's perfect. I want to hug her again. I want to hear her laugh like she used to. It's all Blake's fault.

// a week after //

Blake is officially back with Miranda and he rarely visits Gwen. If he would, it would only take him at least 5 minutes. It would be a miracle if he would stay for 15 minutes. What happened to the Blake that I knew that loves Gwen unconditionally? I can't take this attitude of him. He literally leaves people that truly loves him hanging onto something that doesn't exist. If Gwen wakes up without him by her side, I would literal beat the freak out of him. He knew that I treat Gwen more than just a friend.

The doctors said that due to the accident, her schizophrenia has been a little milder than it used to but her anxiety didn't make any improvements. It kills me to see her like this. I'm imagining Gwen waking up without Blake by her side, I see her torn apart and I wouldn't like to see that. For Gavin, he's been good. He's been helping a lot. It looks like he changed his ways but if they get together again, I will make sure to not let my eyes off of her. We can never know what he can do. If he goes back to all his old habits, it will be a nightmare. I'll be her personal bodyguard. I'll do anything to save her.

A/N:

So I finally updated!! Sorry for not following my update schedule but I might post 3 chapters. The next 2 chapters will be flashbacks so it will be more of a fluff.

Blake,

You suck in this chapter, tbh.

This chapter sucks especially when you listen to Blake songs with it. Like you have a storm of emotions swirling around you. It hurts and I don't recommend you to do it because you'll cry. I don't want you to cry bc I love you guys 💘

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