Déjà Vu

sixteen

Gwen's POV

" You're going home! " a high energy Behati exclaims as she enters my room,

" So where you staying? " Blake suddenly crosses his arms looking like a sheriff,

" Probably with you? " I give him a weak smile but he looked a bit out of focus,

" Are you sure? I mean I haven't fixed the place yet, what if you stay with Gavin for the meantime, " Blake replies still with his arms crossed and making Behati and Adam look very upset,

" But, he isn't here! " Adam suddenly yells out of nowhere,

I go out of bed, I'm sincerely sick of sitting on this cranky old hospital bed. I think I've gotten even more sick because I haven't went outside for a while. Behati tries to assist me but I told her to not because I need to practice. There was a tense pause between the guys when I got out of bed, what's wrong?

" It's okay if the place isn't fine. I can manage, babe, " I give him a tiny kiss on the cheeks,

" But you can't! The place hasn't been fixed since the day we went to Oklahoma! " his voice raised up so I kinda distanced myself from him,

" Why won't you let me stay with you again? " I ask because he's really acting weird. He won't even let me stay at our own place, it's not like I want to stay at his place! our place not his.

" Gwen. It's just that... you know, " Blake started to break for some reason. He became a little more milder but you still felt that he was all tensed up.

" What? That's it? You know? Really funny, Blake. Just tell her! " Adam bursted directly at him. Behati was making him stop but he won't.

Blake was just there, standing looking very guilty of some sort.

" Guys, I don't want any drama on the day I'll be leaving this old hospital, " I say trying to cheer up the subject but the boys were still giving death glares at each other.

" Gwen, I don't want any drama too. But you see Blake— " Adam gets cut off.

" Adam, don't you fucking dare! Don't you fucking dare! I'll fucking kill you, " another death glare was given but this shit is really making me super confused, what's happening?

" Just tell me! What's going on? " I speak up, why won't they tell me? Is it bad or something?

" Don't Adam. I want to be the one to tell her, " Blake tells Adam but a classic Adam situation happens.

" He went back on with Miranda when you were still in your coma! " Adam screams that shocked me and everybody in the room. He got back with her. He gave up. He doesn't love me anymore, it's the reason for all those weird things he said earlier.

" Blake, is this true? " I tried to speak with all these emotions going on and tears running down my face. How can he do this.

" Gwen, let me explain. I'm sorry, " he rushes to sit by my side and he wanted me to lean on to his shoulder but my senses was telling me not to.

" When you were still in coma, I sought comfort and Miranda was there. She helped me recover and somehow recover from the accident. I was tempted and I got back with her but all she did was use me. I still loved you when I left, Gwen I'm really sorry. " he gives me puppy eyes that usually had an effect but now it just repelled me from even forgiving him.

" But before you left, did you even have the guts to at least tell someone you'll be leaving? " Words of anger and curiosity spilled out of my mouth, I didn't know where those words came out.

" Well... I didn't told anyone when I left because everyone will just stop me from doing it. I didn't want anyone to stop me then. Gwen, forgive me. " more puppy eyes from him was directed at me.

" So you did want to get back with her? " the anger was getting even worse.

" Then. But now all I want is to be with you! I'll make it up to you. I'll do anything for you. Promise. " he had the look of a little hope in his face.

" I just don't want to see you right now, Blake. You've been so immature, so impatient and so selfish. I can't handle to be with a guy like that! It's such a hard thing to be in right now, a relationship full of selfishness and immaturity. I'm sorry Blake but it was the last chance I can give you. You have to leave now. " you can say whatever you want but saying those words broke me. It killed me to say them to him since I thought that he was the perfect guy for me. He made me feel good, he loved me for who I was and a whole lots of things but I never knew that the perfect person can break you so much.

He nods and heads out with Adam following him. I don't get it. Why did I do to deserve all this pain? Why did the only person that loved turn his back when I wasn't looking?

I still love you, Blake but you took your chance. Goodbye.