Hatred... (Random stuff that I'll occasionally talk about/ when I'm pissed and need to rant about something)

(Cat is thomas) So i know this is cheesy

Ok I know this is somewhat from Gerard way but I have some stuff to say because lately stuff has been happening.... And I feel like a terrible person and what better way than to tell the Internet right? Well anyway I guess.... I will begin with most recently I've been really suicidal.... And.... I don't know what to say. I feel alone and scared and unhappy with life and living. But the thing is I go to therapy it doesn't help. My mom doesn't help. I'm contemplating what's the point of it even more. Since I told you that might as well tell you this, I have been... Touched. Inappropriately by someone I called "father" and now that I have to talk to people about it I feel even more suicidal. I have been cutting and scratching and pinching. I have self harmed for the past 3 years because of him. Because of the world. But you know why I don't let go? Why I don go deep enough. Why I don't just end it? Because I think about the people who need me. I think about the ones who couldn't possibly try without me. My mom, my brother, my animals, my friend. The person who has impacted and improved my life the most was a few people and I'd like to thank them. My mom, you helped me learn my place you push me further than anyone has, you have hope in me. You may not accept me yet but you will. Cas, you have no idea how much you help, you have saved my life so many times. And I am thankful you listen to my shitty ass problems and talk to me. And you keep me strong. Brandon and Bradley, you test my limits you surprisingly keep me sane. You keep me strong because I remember every morning that I have something to help with whether it's resolving a problem helping with homework or making you smile, you give me a purpose. Thank you.
Maddie, you give me confidence you help me when I feel most useless, you always bring me a smile. Whether it's a bizarre story about young marines or something about bands or an idea sparking into something awesome like GSA! But thank you.
Mrs. Swogger, thank you, thank you for listening to me believing in me, for getting me through the day, for listening to my problems and helping me get through a rough morning. You are so accepting and you believe in me I just wanted to say thank you.
Thomas(my cat), thank you even though you can't read but as soon as we get a house in South Carolina I will make sure that you will never ever ever will get set apart from me not until the day you and I die. Thank you for being there when I was sick and when I was coming out of the closet (or pantry in my situation, get it cause I'm pansexual) thank you.
So I think that's all but I also wanted to say " if you survived do today you can damn well survive tomorrow because I will be there tomorrow even more than today, so stay strong."

Peace love suck a penis.