Hatred... (Random stuff that I'll occasionally talk about/ when I'm pissed and need to rant about something)

So I Have A Problem

My problem is I don't believe in love but I want to be/feel love(d). Okay before you judge hear me out. I have had a bad example of what love looks like. My parents got divorced in August. They always fought and never even said I love you ONCE! Not once did I hear those two say those three words to each other. The first time I ever went to a friends house I recognized how differently their parents were to one another. Sure when I had friends over my parents sometimes acted different. But the last time I had a friend over before they got divorced was the day they decided that they were no longer married. So that has made me not only stop believing in love but thinking it dose not exist. And then there's the other part. As any other human being I want to feel loved. I want someone to hold my hand and give me hugs and kisses and I don't know. Cuddle. It seems really nice. So how do I fix my problems? I don't know.