Dani's December

Chapter Three

Dedicated to FallenMidnightStarXx :3

I had spent the entire two hours after i got off work in a paniced bliss. I didn't know what to wear, I didn't know how to act, i had never been to one of McCoys parties before. I hated the idea of going somewhere where i knew everyone hater me and didn't want me there, but if it ment i was going to get to be with Dani, i could conquer the world.

I lay in my bed late that night, unable to sleep, missing Dani so much that the pain ripping away at my chest is just to much to bear. I contine you scribbling away, needing this as an escape. It was my drug, the only drug capable of fixing my wound.

She picked me up at 7:02 exactly, pulling into my small apartment buildings parking lot. I had been waiting by the door and felt stupid.  I jog to where the end of the stairway is, walking up a few steps then turning back around, acting like i was just coming down them as she walked in the door rather then the fact that i had been waiting there since 6:30. "Hay toots" she says as she see's me, i reply with a quit "Hay" as i watch her eyes run over me. On the ride over to McCoys we talk about stupid stuff, like college, music, weird things like that. I love it, watching her as she drives, watching her lips move as she forms words, watching the different smiles and expressions she had. I felt like a creeper when i would catch myself staring at her, but i couldn't stop. I think that all of my creepy stalker moments where the reason that i knew her so well. No one else seemed to be able to tell when she was really happy or just faking it, when she was really laughing or when she was just laughing because she was about to kick your ass. Only i knew.

When we arrive at the party, it's already in full swing. Approaching the door i feel panic rise in my chest, i knew it would, I'm way to shy for all this. I glance at Dani she never seems to lose her confidence, her stride never slows, she never shows any kind of fear or intimidation, i would soon come to realize that Dani never did, even when she needed to, but at the moment i draw strenght from her confidence and walk in by her side. She walks straight to the guy with the hard liquor, downing three shots in the time it takes me to drink one. The rest of the night goes like this, she drank a lot, but never seemed to act like most of the other drunks here, she kept her cool mindset, however later i discovered something about her that would change my life forever. Around 1 a.m. i go to look for her, only to find her in one of the bedrooms upstaires, with a woman. I close the door quickly, running to the car, oh my god, she's gay..... i can't get that thought out of my mind. Despite the pure hatred and envy i have for the girl that Dani was with i find myself smiling. Deciding that is Dani was gay, then i was too. Thirty minutes later, she comes out lighting a ciggarette when she gets into the drivers side. "Are you sure your okay to drive?"  I ask curiously "Oh yeah toots i'm good don't worry" she says to me with a wicked smile. She told me not to worry, so i didn't.

I fall asleep with this memory flying through my head.