The awful truth

The awful truth- chapter 4

As I stand up and look over the rail and see the fives boys that I recently just made a fool of my self in front of.

"Why are you guys here?" I questioned,not that I didn't want them here its I just didn't need them to be here right now. " to make sure your okay" Liam said sweetly"well I'm just fine" I said back not so sweetly. My mum appeared at the balcony door. "Honey,is there a reason that the boys are outside our house?" " well on my walk I was pushed down in front of the boys and they just came to see if I was okay" "oh, alright honey" I turn back to look and they were gone. Where did they go? I thought. I walked into my room shutting the balcony doors. I went down stairs. "Mum,can we go to dinner now?" "We sure can sweetie" mum and me got ready and walked out the door and walked up town. Mum seen nandos and wanted to try it. We walk in and it smelt mouth watering, we sat down and a waitress soon greeted us and gave us menu's,she also took our order of what to drink. "I'll let you decide and be back in a few with your drinks" she said nicely and walked away. Mum and me looked through the menu,soon finding what we wanted and closed our menu's and talked. The waitress came back with our drinks and grabbed the menu's and took our order and walked away. "So mum about your new job,what do you do there?" I asked. " honey I own the place" "you own modest?" I exclaimed very excited at what I was hearing. "Shh,quiet down. Yes I own modest I've owned it for a long time now" "what are you saying?" I asked clearly confused at what me mum was telling me." Honey,I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner but I own modest and I'm the one who makes all the decisions at modest, and honey I wanted to tell you before I just didn't know how too. And all the times you stayed with grand mum or stayed home by your self was because I had to come out here to London and make sure things were okay and deal with everything. And I swear I wanted to tell you but I was afraid of all those times you complained about 1D's management that you'd hate me for it. I'm sorry" I was baffled at what my mum just told me,I mean all those years of empty promises and those days she was gone for Christmas and my countless birthdays she was gone and I had to spend them all with only my grand mum and no body else. Those times when all I wanted was to know why my mum always left but too afraid to ask or say anything. "Mum,I'd never hate you, but really you keep it from for too long. Why? Why didn't you tell me sooner? What did you think I like it in Ireland ? Did you really? If you did your wrong! It was a living hell. And those Christmas' I spent with grand mum and those countless birthdays I spent with just grand mum or while dad was around when he*i start crying a bit* when he got drunk and raped me...did you think those didn't hurt?All I wanted was to know why you left. But I didn't get that until now, until everything is almost to late and I'm almost on my own. Mum I'd never hate you but I'm pissed at you for this" I sat there looking at my mum and how much my words hurt her but she doesn't know how much those times hurt me. She never will! The waitress came with our food, we started eating and not too long after my mum gave me the money to pay for the dinner when I was ready to leave and she called the waitress over to ask if she could have something to put her food in the waitress gladly walked back in the kitchen grabbed it and then gave it to her. My mum told the waitress she was leaving but I would be paying for both our dinners when I was done and grabbed everything and walked out. I watched as she walked out until I couldn't see her anymore,a few tears trickled down my check as I slowly started eating while crying. I had my head down only starring down at my food or the floor,but my crying and gaze was quickly gone when I heard "love? Are..are you alright?" A familiar voice asked. "I'm fine" I said. "Can I sit down?" He asked his eyes twinkling as if his eyes ate stars." Sure" I said putting more food into my mouth. "Sorry the boys and I left when we did it was the fans or we would have stayed longer" "it's fine" he sat there not talking for a while until he broke the silence " would you mind telling me why you were crying?" He asked " it's my mum she never*i paused afraid to tell him who my mum was* she never told me she owned modest!" I said mad yet sadly. " I'm sorry,but your mums owned it forever now" " I know" "she's really nice but clearly she hurt you by it" " she did but what really hurt me was watching her be hurt after what I told her..that's all" "I know I'm a complete stranger to you and all but what did you tell her?" "I...........I.........I told her I was pissed at her because she never told me and I was miserable in Ireland and that I just really wanted to have her there on my birthdays she missed and at the christmas' she missed and when my dad was around he.......*i paused not wanting to go on* he got drunk and............and r-r-aped me" I put my head in my hands.

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Cliffhanger! See what he says? And do you know who he is? Find out in the next chapter!