Save Your Life| l.t.

Chapter 26: Misery

I PASSED ALL MY COURSES BETTER THEN EXPECTED. Oh my sweetness that was so nice after everything else.  Well in honor of Louis' Birthday and the fact I finished it, here's the next chapter!  Love you guys and Merry Christmas!

Anne POV

I wake up shaking and breathing hard. I feel something jump from behind me but it doesn't register in my mind. I didn't get much sleep but I won't be back to sleep now. I close my eyes and try to slow my breathing, but it doesn't.

"Shit, shit, shit." I curse and then pull in a breath harshly and swallow before grabbing my head. I feel hands on me and I push them off and try to slow my breathing. One, two, three, four. Four, three, two, one. This mantra repeats in my and eventually my breathing evens out. I blink and swallow feeling a dryness in my throat. I rub my eyes, and feel hands on my shoulders.

"Are you okay?" I hear and look up. Louis is sitting next to me with worry filling his eyes. I swallow and just sit there.

"I... I don't know." I say and lean my forehead on his shoulder. "I hadn't had one in a while." I continue softly.

"What?" he asks and rubs my back in a slow circle. I rub my face on his shoulder and take a deep breath.

"A panic attack... it's not like a major thing, the last time I had one was about six months ago." I add. He kisses my forehead.

"It's okay love, do you think you can go back to sleep?" He asks and I shake my head. He presses his face to my hair.

"What time is it?" I ask softly. He turns on his phone and speaks softly.

"Eight o'clock." He says and I take a deep breath. I push myself off my bed and grab my blanket before slowly walking down the stairs. Louis follows me and I see Harry in the kitchen making breakfast. He looks over his shoulder.

"Hey, sorry, I was hungry. I'll pay for the next grocery's." he says and mixes the eggs on the stove. I nod and from behind me my parent's room opens up. I turn and expect to see mum walking out, but out comes Niall. His eyes are bloodshot and he hugs me tightly from the side.

"Hey," he says and I lean into him. "You holding up okay princess?" he asks and I shrug. He kisses my hair before letting me go. Opening the fridge he looks at Harry's eggs on the stove. They actually look very good, with spinach and tomatoes and cheese, but the smell makes my stomach turn. I won't be able to eat any of that. I grab a diet coke from the fridge and a bottle of pills from the cabinet before sitting down at the table. Taking two pain killers for the headache I know will settle in, I play with a piece of paper on the table. Grabbing it I read it and feel tears rise.

Ms. Annabel Greenup,
We are happy to inform you that you have been accepted into the honors band at OSU, and we look forward to welcoming you to our musical family!

The rest of the letter reads on but I drop it and grab another paper. It's a form for a loan for ten thousand dollars. My parents were going to send me to my dream school. They had everything ready to send me but then it all crashed. I rub at my face before hearing a knock on the door. Louis groans and walks to the door. I stand and peak around the corner to see a man with a camera. He talks to Louis and then he sees me.

"Annabel do you have any comment for the shooters?" he asks and points the camera at me. I glare and wipe at my face again.

"Go away." I say and he looks at me with a raised eyebrow.

"What?"

"Go away! I don't have the attention span to deal with you right now! Go away!" I shout and march to the front door before slamming it on him. I start to cry hard and Louis pulls me in and shushes me. I know the reporter can see me. Louis pulls me from the door and lowers me to the couch. I hear my phone ring from the counter, and I don't even remember bringing it inside. Elisa must have done it. I grab it and read the number. It's not a number I have saved but I answer anyways.