My life is cringy carry on with caution

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Im worried. I feel like too different i feel extremely unique. Here in mexico people are nice very friendly but very the same. Here people work in convenience stores until they die and as kids played soccer. Everybody listens to youtube mix- thats it. Me I dont atall. Not just that groups lables im too much of many things. What i mean is im not a hipster but im also not emo or tomboy or girly girl. Im not a complete otaku im not a tumbler person or even an insane fangirl. So then wich club do I join. This is only the tip of the ice berg trust me. I feel 80% sure im genderfluid 98% percent sure im only into guys.

I very much see everybody as equals im very serious about treating people differently because they are loners or wannabeeas or a player or total bitch i give everybody an equal chance. Haven't met anybody like that.

Here obviously everybody speaks spanish so after moving around so much it did take me a long time to open up with my friends and go out etc. But now omg I get so tired of speaking spanish I literally will just leave the hang out and rest reading or drawing at my desk. And it may come off rude but you know whatam i gonna do? What im getting at is that there is definetly a language barrier. I cant adequetly express myself and i get fustrated and leave.

I did this like Meyer Briggs personality test around 70 questions. Get this my personality INFJ is 2% of the worlds population. At that point i was like fuck it with fitting in. Im jus gonna have relationships Im not realllllyy in love with the other person and die alone, I sense that future.